Posted by CaptainAmerica1967 on January 5, 2012, at 10:29:12
In reply to Re: grief and major depression, posted by sukarno on December 25, 2011, at 13:40:15
I've went over my family history for depression which is low on both sides, but anxiety is very high and never knew my Dad's side as my Dad's Dad died went he was 8 years old so we never got to know that side of the family as they lived in Spring Lake, NJ and we lived in Upstate, NY but know alcolholism was (is) big on both sides of the families and maybe they tried to self medicate.
Stress at a young age might produce high cortisol levels preventing normal growth or full growth of the brain and I was told I cried constantly for no reason as a baby even prior to my Dad's death at age 5.
There's a very intersting theory about mood disorder for some individuals that the neurologist, professor, I had went to see after the accident. He had saw too many cases to count of infants that were handled rougly at birth with forceps which caused brain damage of the limbic system (mood)as the fontanelle are soft and many parents didn't recognize it at the time of delivery. Some GYNs used excessive force with the forcep on the temperol lobes at birth. I weighed almost 12 pounds (pure muscle like my Dad-six pack abs at birth) when I was delivered but don't know why they didn't do a C-section on my Mother but maybe they just didn't do many back then as it took the GYN twice as long to extract me. My Mother almost delivered me in the elevating going up to the labor and delivery floor of the hospital. The gyn put so much pressure on my temporal lobes (limbic system deep beneath-mood) that my temples drew blood and had forcep marks on my temples and I still have one on my right temporal lobe.
Physician do make mistakes (there human) and possible this GYN did and definitely the psychiatrist that gave me my 70 ECT's as he later put me on 1000 mg of trazadone which is a very high dose because of my refractory case. My Mother twice saw me go into a blink and stare motion with my eyes. She called the psychiatrist and wondered if it was a seizure and the psychiatrist said Desyrel wasn't known to cause seizures in the studies as it was a 5HT2C antagonist and said I probably had a panic attack and fainted. Boy, this psychiatrist was way off because he never had me checked out and said it was OK to drive and the following week I had a seizure while driving with my Mother in the passenger seat that killed my Mother. I was sent to a neurologist who did an EEG and diagnosed initially as petite mal seizure, but went off the desyrel and I had a completely normal EEG and the neurologist said the super high dose of desyrel mimicked a seizure disorder and I never had one. This neurologist/professor also told me about the theory of seeing many infant handled too roughly at birth with forceps and later developing mood disorders and or seizure disorder. I even had the newest studies done in 2009 to rule out ever having any seizure disorder where I now live in Houston, TX seeing one of the best neurologist and former psychiatrist and all test were negative. I wonder if the psychiatrist in Binghamton, NY at Wilson Mememorial Hospital feels about his mistake of taking a life (40 year old Mother) and making me an orphan at 19 even adding to the already severe depression I had been suffering having tried all available treatments which all fail me? We never sued as it wouldn't bring back my Mother. Forgive and move on with life with a positive, hopeful outlook that you will conquer your disorder one day and have the normal life.
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