Posted by West on November 4, 2008, at 16:46:17
In reply to Re: West are you out there? please come talk..., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 3, 2008, at 21:26:52
> Man i send you babblemail, which EEEEEE! DIDNT work!
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> i mean every sunday "There is comfort in this house" Me:"YES! southern comfort, swig it down you'll have peace and comfort"! AMEN! GLORY TO GOD
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> Danmit everytime i post something people are always paranoid, or because of my stupid rotten past, they see that, and not the new person that is trying to develop.
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> Southern Comfort?
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> rjDear RJ
I am sorry to disappoint you but i cannot receive babblemail since i was caught 'soliciting' drugs through it once (or as the case may be, trying to sell some tianeptine i had left over). I am also sorry to hear you are going through a hard time at the moment and although i won't pretend to know exactly what you're going through (which sounds complicated) I can certainly empathise with the suffering which you convey with great conviction in your posts.
Might i enquire as to your nation of origin? Some of your language and writing style suggest somebody for whom english is not a first language. Am i wrong
Firstly Re. the amphetmaines: the only advice i will probably ever dispense on the subject to you, or anybody else for that matter, will be predominantly negative in tone, so if you want positive encouragement of sympathy over your treatment then i suggest somebody less informed, and perhaps kinder than me.
The invention of the molecule represents a 40 year backpedalling in the advancement of decent psychiatric medicine in my opinion. However, it appears that some, in particular those habituated to the drugs over extremely long periods of time (10-20 years), really cannot experience normality (cope) without them. If this sounds like you i would still suggest tapering, taking pains to do it as slowly as possible -why you might ask?- not because i am some billious drug-free angel of god on a mission to force sinners to repent, but simply because they represent singularly perhaps the most erroneous treatment option where long term happiness is concerned, with only the most marginal number of people actually benefiting from their long-tern use- addiction seems a very real possibility, tolerance usually necessitates raising the dosage, this in turn increases depletion of dopamine and norepinephrine and downgrading of their response. Go at hard enough and you will develop parkinson's much sooner than you had hoped.
Additionally since you are depressed, you should CERTAINLY not be taking d-amphetamine without an antidepressant. Some of the SSRIs are reported to even potentiate the effects of psychostimulants'- Venlafaxine in particular, and of course you would have the added advantage of being something genuinely designed to raise mood, although i cannot recommend them or others in their class since they de-sensitized me in a way that makes me quite angry. Trying bupropion or mirtazapine with either modafinil or selegiline at low doses <10mg could be a good idea. Both provide a sense of well-being coupled with increased cognitive functioning without having the negative repercussions, and frankly undesirable acute and after effects of amphetamines.
If this fails consider importing one of the other antidepressants widely used in European psychiatry from an international pharmacy, though their efficacy might not always be guaranteed. Both provide a strong sense of well-being without having the negative repercussions and frankly undesirable acute, and after, effects of amphetamine.
Finally, i am no expert in such matters but it would appear that you have some issues for which treatment with antidepressants alone would be unsuitable. If you think you are experiencing altered perception or hearing the voices of others talking clearly to you i would strongly suggest finding somebody you trust (a loved one, a doctor) to talk to. Even if the problem isn't serious you will most likely benefit from explaining these things to somebody and hopefully working through some of the ghosts from your past which are clearly hindering your path to wellness.
Sorry if some of this sounds trite. Do know that i wish you the best and understand at least in part some of what ails you.
God Bless (from someone who doesn't feign to be religious)
West
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