Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 3, 2008, at 14:22:33
Alot of websites, i've looked up besides this on, such as bluelight, are more "uncivil" about using medication. Its more of a public blog, that doesnt have any rules. I've seen some people talk about there presciption drug usage which is incredibly confusing how they do this, with a doctor.
I posted to some of them, but they didnt give me real advice. They where like....well "its your problem". I like it here because its, more "medical" guidelines, not how people want to use there medication.....use misuse and abuse.
But, at this moment writing this i'm at work, i feel so "dull", i feel like a robot, i can't express emotions, and it gets depressing. It's like being on anti-psychotic, exept you can do office work, and think. Get kinda what it feels like?
I dont like it at all, im on 45mg (3spansules) which i started just taking 3 spansules in the morning which, it delivers 22.5 for 3-4 hours. Then afternood, its wierd, it slowly releases it.
Well whatever how it does, it makes me feel awful, which when i was a kid, and took adderall, i felt the same thing.
I do notice at 30-40mg is when dextroamphetamine provides a concentration, without the zombie feeling. Low doses such as 5-20mg seem to do this, well in my case..."zombie man"
I've talked with my psychiatrist, and he's back "offish" about dexedrine, yet, he put me on 140mg (2 70mg Capsules) way over the medical guidelines, in just one session, and said, this aougtta do it! made me paranoid, and Vyvanse is diffrent from the standard Amphetamine medications, it has diffrent side effects. And actually, Dexedrine Spansules last LONGER than Vyvanse did for me. Vyvanse would take 1-2 hours to get to the peak and work, then wear off about 6 hours after ingestion.
I've changed from my youthful-bad past of abuse, i said, "you need this medication, you fall apart and dont function correct when your not on it" And for 2 years, i went through the most nuerotic, attention loss, when i was not on any stimulant. I lost everything, forgot everything people said, breakdown.
So, this doctor got angry with me, when i asked him for 3 spansules in morning and 3 in afternoon. He said that going up 300%, no! well he did it Vyvanse....well i dont know. Just never tell a doctor what you think the correct dose would be, it really pisses there ego's off.
But how can i explain to him, that this medication at this dose is partically helping with concentration, but "zombified" most of the day, and its miserable.
Please advice....!! but dont let this disturb
Just some advice: how should i tell him, it makes me feel terrible at this dose?
rj
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:860566
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