Posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
Hello friends,
Let me say: I am neither depressed nor anxious. Doc dismissed possibilities of psychosis too. Still the problem with me is I am very much into suicide. Death is very much alluring to me now as thoughts of suicide has become an obsession. Before suggesting any med, see it please how many meds I am on now:
1. Prozac 40 mg.
2. Provigil 600 mg
3. Klonopin 2 mg
4. Xanax 1 mg
5. Lyrica 300mg
6. Arcalion (a brain vitamin) 800 mg
7. Solian (amisupride) 100 mg
8. Amaryl (anti-diabetic) 2 mg
9. Cozaar (anti-hypertensive) 100 mg
10. Ativan 2 mg occassionally
11. Zolpidem (Ambien a sleeping pill) 10 mg occassionally
I am on 11 medications and a heavy smoker too. Brand is Benson and Hedges 40 cigarettes daily.Now I am thinking of how to end this life. Because I have lived 35 years and there is nothing left for me to live on again. I am working properly, sleeping well interacting with people well, but all these time I think how to end this business once and for all. World is not at all good to live on and death is really alluring. If anyone can tell me how to overdose and have a peaceful death, that would be appreciated. Don't please tell me to go to psychiatrists or psychologists. I went to psychiatrist and he said there is nothing in me that necessitates anything extra. I spent with a psychologist for two hours (Very costly, she charged me 100 $ for two hours) for nothing. All she could say is you are missing something and if you find it out it will be okay and wait. But no. I don't want to wait to get it well, in fact what it means to live? My wife is not attractive to me, nor my kids. I think, I need to be in a new affair, but that would only jeopardize my family. There is no hope in that too.
Let me ask, if there is anything more to add in my meds? Or to withdraw any medications? Will Ritalin help to gain the zest I lost? Or will it worsen? After all, I am left with 40 Klonopin tablets now, 90 prozac and 40 Provigil 200mg Xanax 1 mg will be 20 or 25. Will taking all together will help me sleep for ever. I mean a peaceful death? Or will I left with life again?
If anyone can help..! Nothing is more zestful for me now than ending life. But I want to make it a peaceful death, not an awful like jumping from my aprtment or hanging. That would be awful.
Or if I can regain the hope again help me in that too. ECT is dismissed in my case as psychiatrists couldn't find depression or psychosis in me. Then what? Any other meds to let me live on? Or a lot of meds to end it forever?
If you may help,
poster:Pluto
thread:829421
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