Posted by garylee on May 16, 2008, at 16:21:52
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
> Hello friends,
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> Let me say: I am neither depressed nor anxious. Doc dismissed possibilities of psychosis too. Still the problem with me is I am very much into suicide. Death is very much alluring to me now as thoughts of suicide has become an obsession. Before suggesting any med, see it please how many meds I am on now:
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> 1. Prozac 40 mg.
> 2. Provigil 600 mg
> 3. Klonopin 2 mg
> 4. Xanax 1 mg
> 5. Lyrica 300mg
> 6. Arcalion (a brain vitamin) 800 mg
> 7. Solian (amisupride) 100 mg
> 8. Amaryl (anti-diabetic) 2 mg
> 9. Cozaar (anti-hypertensive) 100 mg
> 10. Ativan 2 mg occassionally
> 11. Zolpidem (Ambien a sleeping pill) 10 mg occassionally
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> I am on 11 medications and a heavy smoker too. Brand is Benson and Hedges 40 cigarettes daily.
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> Now I am thinking of how to end this life. Because I have lived 35 years and there is nothing left for me to live on again. I am working properly, sleeping well interacting with people well, but all these time I think how to end this business once and for all. World is not at all good to live on and death is really alluring. If anyone can tell me how to overdose and have a peaceful death, that would be appreciated. Don't please tell me to go to psychiatrists or psychologists. I went to psychiatrist and he said there is nothing in me that necessitates anything extra. I spent with a psychologist for two hours (Very costly, she charged me 100 $ for two hours) for nothing. All she could say is you are missing something and if you find it out it will be okay and wait. But no. I don't want to wait to get it well, in fact what it means to live? My wife is not attractive to me, nor my kids. I think, I need to be in a new affair, but that would only jeopardize my family. There is no hope in that too.
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> Let me ask, if there is anything more to add in my meds? Or to withdraw any medications? Will Ritalin help to gain the zest I lost? Or will it worsen? After all, I am left with 40 Klonopin tablets now, 90 prozac and 40 Provigil 200mg Xanax 1 mg will be 20 or 25. Will taking all together will help me sleep for ever. I mean a peaceful death? Or will I left with life again?
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> If anyone can help..! Nothing is more zestful for me now than ending life. But I want to make it a peaceful death, not an awful like jumping from my aprtment or hanging. That would be awful.
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> Or if I can regain the hope again help me in that too. ECT is dismissed in my case as psychiatrists couldn't find depression or psychosis in me. Then what? Any other meds to let me live on? Or a lot of meds to end it forever?
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> If you may help,
>Dear Pluto...
I'm saddened to hear your thoughts on your life at the moment. I have also been in a suicidal state before and understand what you are going though - it's not nice at all.
I'm glad you are not considering ECT (yet) that really is a last resort. Have you tried any dopaminergics (Pramixpexole, Ropinerole, even Amineptine - if you can source it...) or finally opiates? Tramadol is easiliy obtained, if your psychiatrist would be willing to try you on it or (if you get one of them off a online pharmacy, easy if you are in the States) Subutex, Oxycodone or Hydrocodone?
Some people will not agree with my suggestions... There are a lot of 'anti' opiates out there, but needs must, if you have tried everything else then you have to try all avenues before even contemplating suicide...
I hope some of this helps, feel free to ask any questions.
All the best
Gary
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