Posted by bleauberry on May 16, 2008, at 19:45:56
In reply to Very Much into Suicide.. If anyone can help, posted by Pluto on May 16, 2008, at 10:07:50
Been there done that.
You know what this sounds like to me? Drug induced emotional numbness. The inability to feel anything good or bad. Everything is pointless. No depression, and no excitement either. Emotionally anesthetized to the point where the idea of life itself is boring and utterly pointless. Perfectly functional, but without purpose because nothing matters. Emotiona numbness with the volume control turned as high as it goes.
Take a look at the meds and it is no surprise.
Having been there and done that, my best suggestion is to wean down on the drugs and eliminate all but the ones you absolutely must keep.
As long as the mind is numb, it will be impossible to feel God's presence, to understand the miracle of life, to love a wife, to love kids, to be attracted to anything, to look forward to anything, or to understand the tragedy self imposed death is to other people who know you.
I was going to ask, does it matter at all to you that your death would cause tears, sobbing, grief, and non-optional dramatic changes in lives of other people? But I realize that is a stupid question, because when emotions are anesthetized, those things really don't matter. It's all pointless. Who cares.
Get off the drugs, starting with prozac. Replace amisulpride with zyprexa. Keep your favorite benzo and drop all the others.
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