Posted by kittencat on July 17, 2004, at 16:14:47
In reply to Suicide looming large..., posted by kittencat on July 17, 2004, at 11:11:32
I need you guys all, so bad. You are the only ones that understand. It was the biggest surprise, accident, & gift ever, stumbling upon this website a few months ago. Scott, I remember posting to you when you were feeling the same, & planning, not long ago, and I can't believe I ever felt that positive. But you stayed. How do we do it? How do any of us do it? My only comfort is knowing, now, that I am not the only one who suffers this intolerable pain.
I am alone. No one would be left floundering if I were to die. No kids, no relationship, nothing. When I saw responses to my post, it was like having my hand held. Some comfort. I'm so scared & desperate. Life hurts me intensely. It always has. It's like a constant scream in my head & heart, even when I appear silent.
I want out...but I'm scared of that, too...
poster:kittencat
thread:367118
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20040714/msgs/367191.html