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Posted by AuntieMel on December 26, 2004, at 15:56:11
In reply to Who are you????, posted by ed_uk on December 21, 2004, at 8:04:46
melanie checking in.
Posted by just plain jane on December 26, 2004, at 17:20:34
In reply to Who are you????, posted by ed_uk on December 21, 2004, at 8:04:46
I hate to shock you this way, but I am
jane.just plain jane.
nothing before
nothing after
just
plain jane
it even says so in my high school yearbook and on my works
just plain jane
Posted by partlycloudy on December 28, 2004, at 14:53:45
In reply to Who are you????, posted by ed_uk on December 21, 2004, at 8:04:46
Nancy here.
Posted by Angel Girl on December 28, 2004, at 17:59:20
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by partlycloudy on December 28, 2004, at 14:53:45
Sorry, I can't say my real name on here in fear of somebody I know discovering my identity. I'd like to remain anonymous. I'm even going to change my name on here because I think it is too revealing.
AG
Posted by trucker on December 28, 2004, at 18:26:55
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by Angel Girl on December 28, 2004, at 17:59:20
i'm sorry that it has to be that way.. i wish things were easier for allof us.. i remember my family not wanting me to take the meds.. i could just snap out of it.. he he.. i was to the point of bad things. and they wanted me to not take meds and not have a T and for gods sake don't tell anyone about "IT" ya know the incest etc..
trucker
//////////////////////////////////////////////////////> Sorry, I can't say my real name on here in fear of somebody I know discovering my identity. I'd like to remain anonymous. I'm even going to change my name on here because I think it is too revealing.
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> AG
Posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:24:08
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by trucker on December 28, 2004, at 18:26:55
> i'm sorry that it has to be that way.. i wish things were easier for allof us.. i remember my family not wanting me to take the meds.. i could just snap out of it.. he he.. i was to the point of bad things. and they wanted me to not take meds and not have a T and for gods sake don't tell anyone about "IT" ya know the incest etc..
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> trucker
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> //////////////////////////////////////////////////////> Sorry, I can't say my real name on here in fear of somebody I know discovering my identity. I'd like to remain anonymous. I'm even going to change my name on here because I think it is too revealing.
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> > AG
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People like that irritate me. They obviously need an education on what depression really is. Do they really think that any of us would be here if we could *snap out of it*? I too am dealing with a history of incest, attempted rape as a child and emotional and verbal abuse as an adult. Some people that know me, don't know about everything, others do. I've blocked out 5 years of my life that I can't remember. Sometimes I think this is a good thing. I can't even handle the things I do remember, I don't want to remember the things I don't. My family is *ok* with me, as far as my meds are concerned but they have a hard time dealing with the constant mood changes and I get absolutely no support from my 27 yr old son.I think that's why we come here. We're pretty sure that we'll get the understanding and support that we can't/don't get IRL, at least that's why I come here. Of course, this is the only place I feel like I *fit in*. I feel like an alien IRL, like there is nowhere I belong. There's a whole world out there but it's foreign to me; there's no place for me in it. Here, I feel comfortable.
AG
Posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 11:44:53
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:24:08
i feel i belong too here. even if i get in trouble from time to time. my shoes are hard to walk in. raped at three and beating for it afterwoards, by my mommy why? "because i asked for it" because at three i still needed help getting dressed etc... i got thing on inside out, backwards, etcc. and needed help. momma would allow this baby raper to baby sit us (my sister and i) while she went god knows where and we had to fend for ourselves. then she would come home before dad did and ripe our pants down and look at our bottoms and if they were irritated in the slightest, she would beat us and tell us it was our own fault. and this is a older relative. now our butts could have been irritated from not washing well, not rincing well, poor fitting clothes, or we could have been raped. and she would beat us. i understand the things you are going thru, cause i was going thru the blank spots, until my baby was born dead then everything came back to haunt me. not only did i have a dead baby to deal with but rape, sexaul abuse, mental abuse, physical abuse, etc..
my self i am glad i not them.. they have to stand before the LORD THY GOD one day and they will recieve what they have coming if they don't repent.
trucker
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> People like that irritate me. They obviously need an education on what depression really is. Do they really think that any of us would be here if we could *snap out of it*? I too am dealing with a history of incest, attempted rape as a child and emotional and verbal abuse as an adult. Some people that know me, don't know about everything, others do. I've blocked out 5 years of my life that I can't remember. Sometimes I think this is a good thing. I can't even handle the things I do remember, I don't want to remember the things I don't. My family is *ok* with me, as far as my meds are concerned but they have a hard time dealing with the constant mood changes and I get absolutely no support from my 27 yr old son.
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> I think that's why we come here. We're pretty sure that we'll get the understanding and support that we can't/don't get IRL, at least that's why I come here. Of course, this is the only place I feel like I *fit in*. I feel like an alien IRL, like there is nowhere I belong. There's a whole world out there but it's foreign to me; there's no place for me in it. Here, I feel comfortable.
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> AG
Posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 12:17:27
In reply to Re: Who are you???? » Angel Girl, posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 11:44:53
> i feel i belong too here. even if i get in trouble from time to time. my shoes are hard to walk in. raped at three and beating for it afterwoards, by my mommy why? "because i asked for it" because at three i still needed help getting dressed etc... i got thing on inside out, backwards, etcc. and needed help. momma would allow this baby raper to baby sit us (my sister and i) while she went god knows where and we had to fend for ourselves. then she would come home before dad did and ripe our pants down and look at our bottoms and if they were irritated in the slightest, she would beat us and tell us it was our own fault. and this is a older relative. now our butts could have been irritated from not washing well, not rincing well, poor fitting clothes, or we could have been raped. and she would beat us. i understand the things you are going thru, cause i was going thru the blank spots, until my baby was born dead then everything came back to haunt me. not only did i have a dead baby to deal with but rape, sexaul abuse, mental abuse, physical abuse, etc..
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> my self i am glad i not them.. they have to stand before the LORD THY GOD one day and they will recieve what they have coming if they don't repent.
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> trucker
>trucker
No one should have to endure all that you did. What person in their right mind blames a 3 yr old for rape? I just don't get people. How could she turn her back on her 3 yr old daughter and defend this horrible man who tries to pass himself off as a *human being*. I know that this scenerio is all too common but for the life of me, I'll never understand it.
I'm sooooo sorry that you've had to endure so much horror in your life and then for your baby to be born dead. I can't even imagine having to deal with that. HUGS!!!!
You're right, THEY will have to answer to our Heavenly Father for their sins and then THEY will get their punishment.
My heart goes out to you. I wish I could be there with you just to hold you and give you a big hug and tell you that you're not alone and there are people who love you, care for you and want your life to be happy. I wish I could make your past go away but that's not possible. All I can do is love you, support you, listen to your cries and send you cyber hugs from afar. I hope you can feel them. {{{{{{{{trucker}}}}}}}
AG
Posted by just plain jane on December 29, 2004, at 16:36:47
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:24:08
Angel Girl,
I agree with you: that's pretty much why we come here, in general.
As early as my single digit years I knew I did not, nor would I ever, "fit in". Well, in my last three years of HS I fit in pretty well, because there was an unusually large proportion of the students who were of the hippie/boozer/party variety.
When you're all self medicating, it's not so hard to fit in. But even there, I was "the one" the other girls watched out for, because I was a diehard one-of-the-guys tomboy, honest and forthright. That can be pretty intimidating (which I had no clue about then).
Now, I make use of my excellent education, innate gift with our language, and the patience I have worked hard and long exercising to strengthen, to function in society at those times I must. Were it not for these blessings, I'd surely be locked away.
I'm still a far shot from fitting in, by any stretch of the imagination. I don't care anymore if people think I am weird or goofy because of my tendency to say unexpected but accurate things, or do things a little outside the "regular" expected behavior. Only reason I cared before was because I was usually in a situation where someone had some control over some facet of my life. Not good to pyss them off with my eccentric humor and divergent trains of thought.
I try to share my smile as much as possible. Being the catalyst of a smile is soooo cool.
Enough already. Must see what thing one and thing two are up to in the porch.
just plain jane
Posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 19:23:40
In reply to Re: Who are you???? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 12:17:27
THANKS!! AG i am a mess from time to time.. and people don't know how to take me. but i am on the mend to a certain degree. i refuse to leave here i have been here several years.
:-) somedays are better than others but i am getting by now. been thru the mill. after the baby .. there is bankruptcy, and the posible forcloser of the house.. "life" i am glad i have a sence of humor.
it is what has got me thru a bunch of things.trucker
Posted by Angel Girl on December 30, 2004, at 13:43:38
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 19:23:40
> THANKS!! AG i am a mess from time to time.. and people don't know how to take me. but i am on the mend to a certain degree. i refuse to leave here i have been here several years.
> :-) somedays are better than others but i am getting by now. been thru the mill. after the baby .. there is bankruptcy, and the posible forcloser of the house.. "life" i am glad i have a sence of humor.
> it is what has got me thru a bunch of things.
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> trucker
truckerI'm glad that you are able to cope with life a little better these days and that you are going to stay here. I tend to come and go but I'm hoping to remedy that habit and put down roots this time. I'm sorry to here about your bankruptcy and possible foreclosure on the house. I've almost been through the same thing due to my wild spending during manic episodes. Got myself into mega debt and was seriously facing losing my home as well. Thanks be to God, my Mom stepped in and paid off all my debts for me, bless her soul. I wish you the best of luck in your own situation. I know the stress it brings. It's not easy. I was a complete mess at the time I went through this and it was at that time that I revealed for the first time how sick I really was. My family was shocked because although I hid a lot of it, they did know there was something wrong. However; they were shocked when they found out the depths of everything I had endured in my childhood, the size of my debts and the fact that I was seriously suicidal at the time.
Sorry, if you've already mentioned, my brain is fried on meds and memory sure ain't what it used to be, do you have any children and are you working? I'll send up some prayers for you.
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{trucker}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
AG
Posted by trucker on December 31, 2004, at 8:27:39
In reply to Re: Who are you???? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on December 30, 2004, at 13:43:38
no children.. he was the only one. not working at this point. T pulled me off the road as i am a trucker and occasionally have vilent reactions to those around me. not good when you are driving an 18 wheeler and people get in my airspace. i am borderline vilent.. it is something i struggle with lately.
trucker
/////////////////////////////////////////////////> > THANKS!! AG i am a mess from time to time.. and people don't know how to take me. but i am on the mend to a certain degree. i refuse to leave here i have been here several years.
> > :-) somedays are better than others but i am getting by now. been thru the mill. after the baby .. there is bankruptcy, and the posible forcloser of the house.. "life" i am glad i have a sence of humor.
> > it is what has got me thru a bunch of things.
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> I'm glad that you are able to cope with life a little better these days and that you are going to stay here. I tend to come and go but I'm hoping to remedy that habit and put down roots this time. I'm sorry to here about your bankruptcy and possible foreclosure on the house. I've almost been through the same thing due to my wild spending during manic episodes. Got myself into mega debt and was seriously facing losing my home as well. Thanks be to God, my Mom stepped in and paid off all my debts for me, bless her soul. I wish you the best of luck in your own situation. I know the stress it brings. It's not easy. I was a complete mess at the time I went through this and it was at that time that I revealed for the first time how sick I really was. My family was shocked because although I hid a lot of it, they did know there was something wrong. However; they were shocked when they found out the depths of everything I had endured in my childhood, the size of my debts and the fact that I was seriously suicidal at the time.
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> Sorry, if you've already mentioned, my brain is fried on meds and memory sure ain't what it used to be, do you have any children and are you working? I'll send up some prayers for you.
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> {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{trucker}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
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> AG
Posted by Angel Girl on December 31, 2004, at 21:45:53
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by trucker on December 31, 2004, at 8:27:39
> no children.. he was the only one. not working at this point. T pulled me off the road as i am a trucker and occasionally have vilent reactions to those around me. not good when you are driving an 18 wheeler and people get in my airspace. i am borderline vilent.. it is something i struggle with lately.
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> trucker
>trucker
I'm sorry that your disorder was affecting your ability to work. I too am off work. Are you on any sort of disability from work or the gov't? Do you have a SO or someone who is there to support you in an emotional way? Hugs.
AG
Posted by trucker on January 1, 2005, at 9:57:44
In reply to Re: Who are you???? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on December 31, 2004, at 21:45:53
no i don't have disability yet.. i have filed for it thru SSDI but it is always hurry up and wait.. i use to think i had friends but they didn't pawn out. as soon as they got a boy friend they were gone. there is no one but here on the thread to support me emotionally. i don't really know how to make and keep friends. because of the childhood and then the trucking. who wants to talk to a woman trucker. acept a man looking for something i not going to give. i am married. and not looking for strange... sex... what ever ya call it.
trucker
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> I'm sorry that your disorder was affecting your ability to work. I too am off work. Are you on any sort of disability from work or the gov't? Do you have a SO or someone who is there to support you in an emotional way? Hugs.
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> AG
Posted by lydia on January 2, 2005, at 9:09:16
In reply to Who are you????, posted by ed_uk on December 21, 2004, at 8:04:46
hi ED! i am ELLEN not LYDIA nice to MEET you.
Posted by Angel Girl on January 4, 2005, at 18:07:54
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by trucker on January 1, 2005, at 9:57:44
> no i don't have disability yet.. i have filed for it thru SSDI but it is always hurry up and wait.. i use to think i had friends but they didn't pawn out. as soon as they got a boy friend they were gone. there is no one but here on the thread to support me emotionally. i don't really know how to make and keep friends. because of the childhood and then the trucking. who wants to talk to a woman trucker. acept a man looking for something i not going to give. i am married. and not looking for strange... sex... what ever ya call it.
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truckerI hope you hear about your disability application soon and that you are accepted. Does your husband not support you? You'll get plenty of support here as I have found. I don't have any friends IRL either.
AG
Posted by trucker on January 4, 2005, at 18:12:24
In reply to Re: Who are you???? » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on January 4, 2005, at 18:07:54
my husband is being a butt!!! and he serves the ME army... meaning everything comes up hubby and if there is anything left i may get it.
i have been accepted for disability but it takes time to actually get the money..etc..
trucker
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> I hope you hear about your disability application soon and that you are accepted. Does your husband not support you? You'll get plenty of support here as I have found. I don't have any friends IRL either.
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> AG
Posted by Angel Girl on January 5, 2005, at 19:20:03
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by trucker on January 4, 2005, at 18:12:24
trucker
I'm sorry that your husband doesn't support you as much as you would like or need. I think most men are like that unfortunately.
I'm glad you've been accepted for disability and I hope you start seeing the money come in soon.
Like you, I don't have friends IRL, and I don't have a SO. I know it's not the same but I'll be your friend. :)
AG
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> my husband is being a butt!!! and he serves the ME army... meaning everything comes up hubby and if there is anything left i may get it.
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> i have been accepted for disability but it takes time to actually get the money..etc..
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> > I hope you hear about your disability application soon and that you are accepted. Does your husband not support you? You'll get plenty of support here as I have found. I don't have any friends IRL either.
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Posted by trucker on January 5, 2005, at 20:01:13
In reply to Getting emotional support/friends » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on January 5, 2005, at 19:20:03
husbands only see in black and white.. woman on the other hand see in colors.. and what do i mean by that you ask??? woman are more intricut. men are men!!! lol.. butts!!! hehehehe... i love him but i tell ya sometimes i have a very thin line between love and hate. thanks for being there. hey what state do you live in anyway??? i know i asked ya before, but i don't recall the answer.
trucker
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> I'm sorry that your husband doesn't support you as much as you would like or need. I think most men are like that unfortunately.
> Like you, I don't have friends IRL, and I don't have a SO. I know it's not the same but I'll be your friend. :)
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> AG
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Posted by Angel Girl on January 6, 2005, at 20:04:41
In reply to Re: Getting emotional support/friends, posted by trucker on January 5, 2005, at 20:01:13
trucker
I don't live in the US, I live in Canada. Sorry, didn't see where you asked me before, I'll look to see if I missed something. I agree with your analogy of men and women.
AG
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> husbands only see in black and white.. woman on the other hand see in colors.. and what do i mean by that you ask??? woman are more intricut. men are men!!! lol.. butts!!! hehehehe... i love him but i tell ya sometimes i have a very thin line between love and hate. thanks for being there. hey what state do you live in anyway??? i know i asked ya before, but i don't recall the answer.
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Posted by trucker on January 6, 2005, at 20:17:29
In reply to Re: Getting emotional support/friends, posted by Angel Girl on January 6, 2005, at 20:04:41
i may not have asked recently. what providence?? and the men thing!!!! can't live with 'em can't live with out 'em!!
hehehe :-)trucker
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> I don't live in the US, I live in Canada. Sorry, didn't see where you asked me before, I'll look to see if I missed something. I agree with your analogy of men and women.
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> AG
Posted by Angel Girl on January 6, 2005, at 22:31:38
In reply to Re: Getting emotional support/friends, posted by trucker on January 6, 2005, at 20:17:29
trucker
Actually, you did, I found it and replied. I also sent you a babblemail. Hope you get it, I'm new to that. Your comment about men, well, I don't have one so I guess I'll have to settle to live without.
AG
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> i may not have asked recently. what providence?? and the men thing!!!! can't live with 'em can't live with out 'em!!
> hehehe :-)
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> trucker
Posted by trucker on January 6, 2005, at 22:49:03
In reply to Re: Getting emotional support/friends » trucker, posted by Angel Girl on January 6, 2005, at 22:31:38
YEP I GOT IT AND REPLIED SOME TOO. men well a good one is hard to find. keep looking, maybe he'll pop in your life someday... my husband i still thinks needs meds and T worse than i do. i think he is the problem. but i love him so what can i do!!! i know take zoloft it will make ya smile at most all things. hehehe
trucker
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> Actually, you did, I found it and replied. I also sent you a babblemail. Hope you get it, I'm new to that. Your comment about men, well, I don't have one so I guess I'll have to settle to live without.
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Posted by Angel Girl on January 10, 2005, at 2:41:02
In reply to Re: Getting emotional support/friends, posted by trucker on January 6, 2005, at 22:49:03
I could use something that will make me smile these days. My meds certainly don't help me. I've yet to find something that will.
AG
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> YEP I GOT IT AND REPLIED SOME TOO. men well a good one is hard to find. keep looking, maybe he'll pop in your life someday... my husband i still thinks needs meds and T worse than i do. i think he is the problem. but i love him so what can i do!!! i know take zoloft it will make ya smile at most all things. hehehe
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> trucker
Posted by Angel Girl on January 10, 2005, at 2:51:30
In reply to Re: Getting emotional support/friends, posted by trucker on January 6, 2005, at 22:49:03
Forgot to mention, sorry that your husband is also suffering. I can't imagine what it would be like to have 2 people in the same house that way. Part of me thinks you would get more understanding but part of me thinks, it wouldn't be a very good combo. But as you said, you love him and that's all that matters.
As for me, I won't hold my breath waiting for any man to come around my way.
AG
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> YEP I GOT IT AND REPLIED SOME TOO. men well a good one is hard to find. keep looking, maybe he'll pop in your life someday... my husband i still thinks needs meds and T worse than i do. i think he is the problem. but i love him so what can i do!!! i know take zoloft it will make ya smile at most all things. hehehe
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