Posted by trucker on December 29, 2004, at 11:44:53
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:24:08
i feel i belong too here. even if i get in trouble from time to time. my shoes are hard to walk in. raped at three and beating for it afterwoards, by my mommy why? "because i asked for it" because at three i still needed help getting dressed etc... i got thing on inside out, backwards, etcc. and needed help. momma would allow this baby raper to baby sit us (my sister and i) while she went god knows where and we had to fend for ourselves. then she would come home before dad did and ripe our pants down and look at our bottoms and if they were irritated in the slightest, she would beat us and tell us it was our own fault. and this is a older relative. now our butts could have been irritated from not washing well, not rincing well, poor fitting clothes, or we could have been raped. and she would beat us. i understand the things you are going thru, cause i was going thru the blank spots, until my baby was born dead then everything came back to haunt me. not only did i have a dead baby to deal with but rape, sexaul abuse, mental abuse, physical abuse, etc..
my self i am glad i not them.. they have to stand before the LORD THY GOD one day and they will recieve what they have coming if they don't repent.
trucker
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> People like that irritate me. They obviously need an education on what depression really is. Do they really think that any of us would be here if we could *snap out of it*? I too am dealing with a history of incest, attempted rape as a child and emotional and verbal abuse as an adult. Some people that know me, don't know about everything, others do. I've blocked out 5 years of my life that I can't remember. Sometimes I think this is a good thing. I can't even handle the things I do remember, I don't want to remember the things I don't. My family is *ok* with me, as far as my meds are concerned but they have a hard time dealing with the constant mood changes and I get absolutely no support from my 27 yr old son.
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> I think that's why we come here. We're pretty sure that we'll get the understanding and support that we can't/don't get IRL, at least that's why I come here. Of course, this is the only place I feel like I *fit in*. I feel like an alien IRL, like there is nowhere I belong. There's a whole world out there but it's foreign to me; there's no place for me in it. Here, I feel comfortable.
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> AG
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