Posted by just plain jane on December 29, 2004, at 16:36:47
In reply to Re: Who are you????, posted by Angel Girl on December 29, 2004, at 11:24:08
Angel Girl,
I agree with you: that's pretty much why we come here, in general.
As early as my single digit years I knew I did not, nor would I ever, "fit in". Well, in my last three years of HS I fit in pretty well, because there was an unusually large proportion of the students who were of the hippie/boozer/party variety.
When you're all self medicating, it's not so hard to fit in. But even there, I was "the one" the other girls watched out for, because I was a diehard one-of-the-guys tomboy, honest and forthright. That can be pretty intimidating (which I had no clue about then).
Now, I make use of my excellent education, innate gift with our language, and the patience I have worked hard and long exercising to strengthen, to function in society at those times I must. Were it not for these blessings, I'd surely be locked away.
I'm still a far shot from fitting in, by any stretch of the imagination. I don't care anymore if people think I am weird or goofy because of my tendency to say unexpected but accurate things, or do things a little outside the "regular" expected behavior. Only reason I cared before was because I was usually in a situation where someone had some control over some facet of my life. Not good to pyss them off with my eccentric humor and divergent trains of thought.
I try to share my smile as much as possible. Being the catalyst of a smile is soooo cool.
Enough already. Must see what thing one and thing two are up to in the porch.
just plain jane
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