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Posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
Only 40 hours until my last therapy with T, normally by this stage of the week I'm willing the time away but I'm so confused because I'm desperate to see him but also desperate not to because it is the last time.
Must be more positive, must be more positive.Normally after therapy I can hardly speak, definatly can't eat almost as if I try to stay in suspended animation and relive everything said and how it was said.
Hubby has just surprised me with the news that he has arranged for me to drive down to Devon straight after my last ever T (approx 300 miles) to take my girls to see my elderly uncle!
I know all I will want to do is crawl into bed and be on my own and now I've got to cope with the girls on my own, drive all day and then be a dutiful niece and I won't have access to babble for any support.
Hugs needed please
a sad milly
Posted by HappyWildflower on April 2, 2006, at 14:13:50
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
MILLY -- HERE'S A DOZEN GREAT BIG SOFT HUGS FOR YOU ... i'M THINKING OF YOU SWEET PEA... I know you must be feeling sad, but dont worry you will feel the support and love i'm sending to you right now, ihope>>>>>>>
I saw you left the chat room a wee while ago.. I am sorry i didnt get to talk to you, there was someone else from accross the pond but i really wanted to chat to you!!! do you want to give it a go again??
I ALSO WROTE TO YOU ON ANOTHER THREAD ABOUT paris but I CANT FIND IT AGAIN, AS I DONT KNOW WHERE I AM HALF THE TIME ON HERE YET.. But i'm certainly thinking of you for sure for Tuesday.
Posted by LadyBug on April 2, 2006, at 15:19:00
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
(((((((((((((((MILLY)))))))))))))))
I'm so sad for you having to go to your last session with your T.
My memory is really short, but I don't remember reading "why" this is your last session, so I'll ask now????
I hope things go well for you and that it goes as you would hope. You will be in my thoughts on Tues. I'm sorry you have to make a trip after that will take you away from us here at Babble. Let us know how it goes as soon as you can. We will be here for you.
You take care of yourself ok?
Hugs
Lu
Posted by Dinah on April 2, 2006, at 15:37:37
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
Posted by fallsfall on April 2, 2006, at 15:43:14
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
Many of us are familiar with the therapy hangover you are describing. I can't imaging having to do something (let alone something demanding) right after therapy. And after your last session??
Tell your husband and your uncle that it isn't good timing for you. Take your kids down to see Uncle a couple of days later. You can say no to this.
(((((Milly)))))
Posted by HappyWildflower on April 2, 2006, at 16:02:47
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
Hi Milly - I was wondering if you have thought about tapre recordong your last session.... so that way you can replay it over and over as many times as and when you want to. That way you could go for a drive down to devon and then stich your tape on and listen to it on a wee sony walkman with ear phones.. if you want to .
I hope this helps, I dont know if your T is comforatablre with taping but I THINK ALL/most GOOD T'S ARE. tHAT WAY YOU WONT HAVE TO STAY SUSPENDED IN TIME TO HOLD ONTO EVERYTHING THAT WAS SAID, COS YOU'LL HAVE IT ON TAPE.
I think most clinics on nhs aswell as private will have access to an audio tape recorder, and just to be sure you could go into argos on Monday (tomoro) and buy one. I think argos sell them for around 30 quid, i know this because i bought one last year and frequently use it for the exact same purpose, to record my sessions, so i dont hav to feel suspened in mid air as I try to recall everything I said and she said etc.
It's an invaluable purchase to me nad my life... it will not be wasted either as you could always use it with your next therapist. I'm guessing here, but if you are upset about leaving the therapist you are leaving on Tuesday, no doubt you will go over how you feel and hopefully work it out with your next one. So the tape of discussions about the one you're being forced to leave will also be a possible source of comfort for you.
Is this a help to you or am I not making any sense? as I know what works for me wont necessarily work for the next peerson in this case you, but it's my intention to offer you some useful advice...
Take care happywildflower
Posted by B2chica on April 3, 2006, at 9:47:50
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
Posted by fairywings on April 3, 2006, at 16:17:43
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
((((milly)))))
I'm so sorry you're coming up on this, it's been a horrible time for you. I hope you get to say what's on your heart.
I agree with falls, can you postpone the trip to see your uncle? It's not a good time right now.
(my husband would be in big trouble if he made plans like that for me)fw
Posted by milly on April 3, 2006, at 17:27:03
In reply to Re: I can't hold back time, hugs needed! » milly, posted by LadyBug on April 2, 2006, at 15:19:00
Thanks, i think I have to leave him because I was offered 6 months ?crisis therapy and he has already pushed it to 7. He will refer me on if i agree to it but I'm not sure, I'll have to have made up my mind by tomorrow.
Now it is less than 12hrs away and I'm still having to make the trip afterwards.
Thanks for the hugs (much needed!)I'll be back when I can but it helps sooooo much to know you care
milly
Posted by milly on April 3, 2006, at 17:28:09
In reply to ((((((((((((((milly)))))))))))))) (nm) » milly, posted by Dinah on April 2, 2006, at 15:37:37
Thanks Dinah, now less than 12 yrs to go, I really needed those hugs thanks
milly
Posted by milly on April 3, 2006, at 17:32:42
In reply to Re: I can't hold back time, hugs needed! » milly, posted by fallsfall on April 2, 2006, at 15:43:14
** Hi falls
> Many of us are familiar with the therapy hangover you are describing. I can't imaging having to do something (let alone something demanding) right after therapy. And after your last session??
** That was good to hear, I thought it was me being a bit strange but I really can't eat and often can't even talk.Let alone cope with kids and a 300mile trip!
> Tell your husband and your uncle that it isn't good timing for you. Take your kids down to see Uncle a couple of days later. You can say no to this.
** I can't, I should but I can't, my uncle is so excited and hubby has done it with the best intentions and I am so hopeless.
> (((((Milly)))))** thanks for the much needed hugs I'll tell you all about it when i get back
milly
Posted by milly on April 3, 2006, at 17:33:31
In reply to (((((((((milly)))))))))) (nm), posted by B2chica on April 3, 2006, at 9:47:50
Thanks I needed those hugs, now less than 12 hrs to go (sobs)
milly
Posted by milly on April 3, 2006, at 17:39:45
In reply to Re: I can't hold back time, hugs needed! » milly, posted by fairywings on April 3, 2006, at 16:17:43
> ((((milly)))))
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> I'm so sorry you're coming up on this, it's been a horrible time for you. I hope you get to say what's on your heart.** So do I, I'm trying to write it down incase i go to pieces but it all sounds wrong somehow
> I agree with falls, can you postpone the trip to see your uncle? It's not a good time right now.
> (my husband would be in big trouble if he made plans like that for me)** i just can't I should have but I can't, he did it because i'm still not great with the phone so between them (Uncle & hubby) they thought it would be a nice surprise!!! Uncle is paying for our stay but it just feels so huge to drive all that way, cope with 3 stroppy girls spend 2 nights away from my own bed and all in the aftermath of my last therapy session.
Thanks for caring
milly
Posted by fairywings on April 3, 2006, at 19:48:41
In reply to Re: I can't hold back time, hugs needed! » fairywings, posted by milly on April 3, 2006, at 17:39:45
> ** So do I, I'm trying to write it down incase i go to pieces but it all sounds wrong somehow
I wouldn't worry about how it sounds Milly. Tell him what you'd wish you'd told him if you didn't tell him at this last appt.....you know what you'd kick yourself for not saying. If it's too hard, maybe you could write it out and let him read it.
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> ** i just can't I should have but I can't, he did it because i'm still not great with the phone so between them (Uncle & hubby) they thought it would be a nice surprise!!!It's too bad your husband can't go with you, do the driving, and help with the girls. Does your husband realize what a terribly difficult time this is for you? I only ask bec. my husband just doesn't get it when it comes to therapy, or the upheavals I have.
>Uncle is paying for our stay but it just feels so huge to drive all that way, cope with 3 stroppy girls spend 2 nights away from my own bed and all in the aftermath of my last therapy session.
I admire that you're going ahead with it milly. I know your uncle must adore you and look forward to seeing you and your girls.
Please be sure to let us know how you are when you get back! I'll be thinking about you.
(((milly)))
fw
Posted by madeline on April 3, 2006, at 21:04:44
In reply to I can't hold back time, hugs needed!, posted by milly on April 2, 2006, at 13:19:14
You are a brave woman. I'll be thinking of you a lot in the coming days. Have a great trip in Paris.
((((((Milly)))))
All of my love and hope to you.
Maddie.
Posted by TherapyGirl on April 4, 2006, at 9:33:10
In reply to I admire you too Milly. » milly, posted by madeline on April 3, 2006, at 21:04:44
Me, too, Milly. ((((((((((((((Milly)))))))))))
Posted by milly on April 7, 2006, at 11:53:48
In reply to Re: I can't hold back time, hugs needed! » milly, posted by fairywings on April 3, 2006, at 19:48:41
Hi fairywings
> I wouldn't worry about how it sounds Milly. Tell him what you'd wish you'd told him if you didn't tell him at this last appt.....you know what you'd kick yourself for not saying. If it's too hard, maybe you could write it out and let him read it.
** You're right it didn't matter. i wrote it down as a letter and then asked him if I could read it, we were both in tears by the end!!
> It's too bad your husband can't go with you, do the driving, and help with the girls. Does your husband realize what a terribly difficult time this is for you? I only ask bec. my husband just doesn't get it when it comes to therapy, or the upheavals I have.** He's really sweet but he hasn't got a clue! In fact it worked out well because I had 6 hours of solitude in my head to go over what had happened. The girls were sooooo good (I think they had worked out that if I got 'wierd' while I was away they would be stranded!!)
i actually need to be alone after therapy so it was perfect and somehow I managed to drive without incident.
> I admire that you're going ahead with it milly. I know your uncle must adore you and look forward to seeing you and your girls.** Thanks it was areally healing time as 2 of the 3 and I have had a VERY rough patch, they blame me and my 'illness' for everything that goes wrong and I haven't been able to stand up to it so it just drove me lower. I couldn't tell them that the trigger to me being ill was the child abuse I had uncovered at the school, so I just let them believe that I messed up my job!!!
> Please be sure to let us know how you are when you get back! I'll be thinking about you.
> (((milly)))Thanks, knowing I was coming back to my 'babble' family has made this week OK
milly
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Posted by milly on April 7, 2006, at 12:11:11
In reply to I admire you too Milly. » milly, posted by madeline on April 3, 2006, at 21:04:44
> You are a brave woman. I'll be thinking of you a lot in the coming days. Have a great trip in Paris.
** Thanks maddie, I made it and it was actually fine, I appreciated the solitude on the 6hr drive (girls slept) and somehow managed to keep the car on the road!
Looking forward to paris, shall I send my T a postcard? or would that be the 'wrong ' thing to do?> ((((((Milly)))))
**thanks for the hugs I really needed them.
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> All of my love and hope to you.
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> Maddie.
**Hows things with you?
Posted by milly on April 7, 2006, at 12:12:45
In reply to Re: I admire you too Milly., posted by TherapyGirl on April 4, 2006, at 9:33:10
> Me, too, Milly. ((((((((((((((Milly)))))))))))
Thanks Therapy Girl, it was knowing i would be returning to the 'babble' nest and that whatever happened people would care that made the whole thing managable
milly
Posted by fairywings on April 9, 2006, at 21:14:13
In reply to Re: I can't hold back time, hugs needed! » fairywings, posted by milly on April 7, 2006, at 11:53:48
I'm so glad it went so well for you Milly! I was thinking about you tonight, and was going to post to see if you were back.
Wow, you both cried! That's so incredible! That will hold you for a long, long time, I'm sure! Be sure to write it all down, so you can go back and reflect when you're feeling bad.
I'm sorry about your girls - how old are they? Mine don't understand either, and they blame me too - I have hurt them unintentionally. My husband is always the "good guy". He's clueless when it comes to emotions. He's a good pal, but not good when the kids have issues and could use someone to confide in and counsel them.
((hugs))
fw
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