Posted by susan47 on April 15, 2008, at 23:44:49
In reply to Re: my life, posted by susan47 on March 28, 2008, at 9:29:45
Whew. What a lot to say, when one is unleashed and stoned.
One day soon I will be unleashed and NOT stoned.
Yes.
It has to happen that way.
It just has to.
For me, for my children, my family and friends, even.
I can't sink much further than this. I just can't. I have to put the Ego away forever. It has to disappear.
I've been a slave to this f*ck*ng ego, no father can hurt a child without that child also having an Ego that allows itself to be hurt.
Yes? No? I think that might be going too far.
Just a tad, a bit too far, darling.
Yes.
Too far. A mind that doesn't know when enough is enough, Enough, GOD DAMN IT! I realized just now, what all the caps mean in my writing, they are my FATHER SHOUTING, Damn it! Damn it damn it all, I just realized this.
And my ego once again plays a song, taps a dance with itself.
It.
The I, where is the I in it?
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