Posted by susan47 on August 18, 2007, at 2:23:58
In reply to I hate the way I am, posted by susan47 on May 23, 2007, at 16:30:15
to that part of my soul that can't say goodbye, cannot shut it off, shut it down, say I love you, I want you to love me too, but I want you to be safe, and whole, and secure in the life you have but I also want to be a part of it, of knowing you, because I think you are a person I need in my life, even if I can never see your face in real life ever again, which would kill me if I knew that; if I knew I would never see your face in front of my eyes again, if I knew I'd never be in your presence ever again, if I knew all that now, I wouldn't want to live. I want to say goodbye to the part of me that needs you. I want to kill it off, I want to make sure I can still be whole though, a whole human being, a person in my own right, someone who's as Good as you are. Because I know that about you, I know that you are truly Good to your core, the essence of your Being is Pure, Good, Whole in bodyspiritmind. You are so lovely ... I love you so much ... I want to Live.
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