Posted by special_k on March 21, 2006, at 4:11:06
i think
i think i feel sad
and faint
like a shaddow
'cept i don't think shaddows feel embarrased...people listen more to guys 'cause they have deeper voices. empirical fact. have to learn to be more assertive... no excuse though.
feel like i've gone from being a big fish in a small pond to a small fish in a big pond. don't feel like i know what peoples are talking about mostly... haven't read what they have... haven't studied what they have... i feel stupid. and i don't have much to say. and when i do... people listen more to guys 'cause they have deeper voices.
but thats probably just an excuse... lack of assertiveness etc. don't feel very self confident. questioning myself a lot.
meant to get better... second half of the year. but right now... i feel stupid and i just want to curl up a lot of the time. go all quiet and resign myself to being thought of as: a stupid one :-(
it is hard :-(
poster:special_k
thread:622766
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