Posted by Damos on November 6, 2005, at 23:52:07
In reply to Re: I had a dream..., posted by alexandra_k on November 6, 2005, at 22:46:41
Oh no, not Voldeboard!!!!!
Can I ask what you are sorry for here? Cause I can't see anything that warrants it.
Your internal contradictions and the way you question yourself and your motives are part of what makes you you. The way you have experienced life has also strongly coloured your humanity and sense of social/moral responsibility, as has your experience with the 'system'. Hence, nothing is simple for you.
Personally, I think the most important thing is for you to get yourself into the best place (physically, mentally, emotionally) that you can before you dive into your Phd.
The fact that you feel guilty about the choice is important in itself - there are an awful lot of people who have been through a heck of a lot less, who have significantly more in terms of support and resources than you who wouldn't even think twice.
The choice to be "a lawyer for humanity" is not an easy one and your biggest contributions may be yet to come, but do not forget that you have done volunteer work with kids who might have otherwise had no-one, that you contribute significantly here and in other places.
You need to do that which is best for you. The best way you can repay society for whatever support you have received is to be the best philosopher you can be; to continue to try and make a difference. You need to remember that you have gone ahead and done something with the assistance you have been given.
You should not feel guilty about making what is the best choice for you.
poster:Damos
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