Posted by Damos on April 26, 2005, at 18:25:38
In reply to Re: You, Him, Them, Us » Damos, posted by AdaGrace on April 26, 2005, at 17:28:38
> AAhhhh that was sweet Damos, you are such a kind hearted person.
The only response that comes to mind is Bollocks. But that's probably inappropriate.
> However, don't you see? We cannot cohabitate this body like this forever. One is bound to eventually take control. It cannot be this way forever. The sad thing is, none of them really, really needs to be in charge. And if not, the who is? Who is left?Yeah I do see and I feel the terrible pain and fear in the words above. I read your post so many times feeling each of you and looking deep inside myself. I don't know, I honestly don't know. Maybe the answer doesn't lie in one or the other or what is left. Maybe it lies in what becomes. Maybe, none needs or wants to be in control because they know on a deeper level that there is a truer you that is beyond all of them. Maybe they need to become like a circle of friends that you have grown out of and moved on from because you're reaching for something else that only you can know.
I suspect that Gracie is someone who is so much more than any of these people and immensely beautiful, capable and powerful. It's just a feeling.
I know what it's like to not know who you are and to fear that if you let go of all the characters that there'll be nothing left. I'm also realising how difficult it is to let the true me be. I know I am not what anyone sees, I am so much more and at the same time so much less and so untouchable and unreachable to myself.
Between you and me I see know equivalent of the temptress in me and I know the maniac though he has never seen the light of day, he scares me terribly because I know he is there just waiting.
Sorry to ramble so long.
Love you Gracie.
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