Posted by Jost on October 20, 2006, at 7:27:27
In reply to Work, posted by Jost on October 7, 2006, at 11:57:59
Update:
Working more has made a huge difference this week. I can feel myself getting better at seeing, after a long time of feeling as if I can't make anything work.
so far, I''ve worked 6 hrs with H, 6 hours w Jchiche, 3 hours w K.; 3 hours today with H, tomorrow w J, and Sunday, I hope S. (Not counting working on the collage-- maybe for most people not a lot, but a lot for me)
I had planned to work today 6 hours, but K called yesterday and said:
I'm in Phila. on a gig, and they need me to work tomorrow too, so I won't be able to work with you. My agent only booked me for Thursday, but now they need me, so I Have To stay. I know you've been frustrated by my not being available, but I won't be coming. I'll be in touch about next week.
I'm not sure if she realizes that I won't work with her any more. She may think I can't stop, because I need her for the drawing, but I"ve decided.
I've accomplished almost nothing this year because of Sylvia, Liesbeth, Sarah and Kelly, cancelling and being unavailable after asking me to put aside times, etc etc-- but continuing to make commitments for "after the next few weeks," or "starting at x time"-- so I haven't looked for other people to work with . I'm not going to let that happen, and definitely not going to work with Sarah or Kelly any more.
I have to handle things very differently.
So far, I've been a little better with H and J, at least about the pose. If I could work better and more consistently on that, it would make things so much much better-- and just working more. This year has been so wasteful of my time and energy and I haven't taken my work seriously-- just let it be ruined.
I have got to stop letting everything drift away.
Jost
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