Posted by verne on October 5, 2005, at 21:03:11
In reply to Re: 44 days and wondering... » tizza, posted by ClearSkies on October 5, 2005, at 5:57:20
I'm really struggling to not drink - almost 80 days sober but I'm starting to crack. I messed around with some exotic herbs (legal pot alternatives like kratom) and made myself sick last weekend.
Yesterday I put a pot buy into motion that is becoming a little complicated. Now today I'm thinking about drinking to deal with the stress of buying weed. (I've only used a few times in the last 20 years)
Perhaps, I'll cancel the pot buy since it's creating so much anxiety. I thought I'd get a bunch of pot to help me stay off booze yet it's leading me back to it.
It's hard for me to let something go once it has a hold on me - once the neediness sets in. It's like I have to smoke pot. I can't recall the missiles, put the horse back in the barn, unring the bell - feel free to insert your own metaphor at this point.
Verne
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