Posted by ClearSkies on October 3, 2005, at 21:32:36
In my never ending saga...
44 days of continuious sobriety. Helped with reaching out to my Womens' suport group (very good they reach right back!!).Have attempted going to many different AA meetings (the gazillionth time I've tried to listen and hear the message, to no avail.) Several months of name and phone numbers written down, not a single person called.
I'm 3/4 done with an inentensive outpatient progranne. I heard today that the insurance company considers that since I was well enough to take a vacation, last week then I am not now ill enough to continue to be covered for the remaining 2 weeks of treatment,
So the dillema is - do I drop the last 2 weeks of treatment since it will be at my cost? I say all the right words at our group sessions and make the correct suggestions. but I am troubled by the 12-step slant of the programme, They suggest that every one join a group, that everyone find a sponsor. At the beginning of the treatments I was very open in expressing my firmly held belief that the 12-step programme had been tried many times and in may places and forums and flavours and that it was ultimately deternmined that I do not belong in that recovery enironment. And have, in fact, have found the AA structure and Big Book cliches to be counter to my recovery and is responsible for many triggers that I'm highly aware of.
I am so fortunate to have developed a solid network of friends with whom I can call, visit, and meet with to share our sobrieties together, on a weekly basis, and in bewteen as we need to, to keep the group strong.
Yet the outpatient programme espouses the 12 step as being The Only Way to find and maintain your sobriety. Without the Prgramme, You Will Certainly Die.
I am at a crossroads where I don't feel I'm geting further development with the outpatient group. I've been offered a lower scale to pay privately for the remaining sessions. but I'm not sure that I need it. I mean, I have recently been through 2 litmous tests of travelling to foreign countries where I am unfamiliar with the languages spoken, and did not resort to drinking acohol to ease any discomfort I felt (which mustn't much).
Any ideas, my friends? I know it's early days in my recovery and at the same time I feel that I have a strong network of sober, completent women with whom I can and do keep daily contact with.
Thanks
ClearSkies
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