Posted by 4WD on May 21, 2005, at 22:53:47
In reply to Re: HELP/URGENT! I AM OUT OF CONTROL!, posted by AMD on May 21, 2005, at 21:57:47
> .Echo. has been around for awhile now, hasn't it? If I recall correctly it was a forerunner of the Web in the latter's infancy.
Yeah, it's still basically text-based. I was a member for a while. It's a nice community.
> So ... I am feeling a tad better, but it doesn't help that I feel spaced out. Is it possible this is a side-effect not of the withdrawal but of a stroke from the cocaine? All I know is I passed out from drinking and the cocaine, and I'm worried this wasn't an alcohol pass-out but rather that I've given myself a stroke.I don't know if you've had a stroke (-- I'm not a doctor and I don't know your symptoms and if you feel you may have, then do go to an ER). I do think your brain is still in shock from the drug and alcohol use and you are suffering from med-based anxiety. When I stopped Ativan cold turkey years ago, I was quite sure I had (alternately) TB, cancer, every dread disease I had ever heard of. I think you are terrifed you've irrevocably damaged your body and your brain and are fixated on what damage you might have done.
> How likely is that, anyhow, a stroke induced my cocaine, for a relatively health guy who runs often, has a resting pulse rate that hovers between 60 and 70, and has low cholesterol (both good and bad)?
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> I seem to have glazed over eyes -- would that be indicative of a stroke? Or meds, perhaps? In any case, would this pass?For me, it would be worth a visit to the ER or to a doctor ASAP, just to get the mental reassurance that I was physically okay. And also, if you are NOT physically okay, you need to know it. You may be reluctant to go because then you have to tell them what drugs you've taken, etc. But isn't your life more important?
> I also feel a slight affect, the feeling of being removed from myself.
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> I just solved a very simple integral equation
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> / 3
> | (x+2)^3 dx
> / 0
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> just to see if I still had basic mathmatical functions, and they seem to be there, but I'm having a hard time thinking clearly and planning tasks.
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> Perhaps this is the Zyprexa, this spaced out feeling. I'm full of worry and dread now. :-(
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> am-am-am-am-am-amd (<-- record skipping)I understand how horrible you feel and how scared you are. I've been there. For me, it was from the drugs. To be honest with you, I think you would be very wise to get yourself to a doctor. Wouldn't it make you feel safer just to tell someone knowledgeable exactly what is going on and hear his/her opinion? You need care and help and you're asking for it here. But we're just virtual support and you need it in person from someone who can actually DO something for you.
You're obviously a very intelligent person. Give yourself a chance. Please go for a medical opinion and some help.
Marsha
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