Posted by LegWarmers on January 15, 2006, at 23:19:13
In reply to Re: Just got back from going out with friends at w, posted by TexasChic on January 15, 2006, at 11:09:29
> I feel better than yesterday. I guess drinking does increase your depression. I was really low. I'm still feeling really ick about the other night though. I don't know why I told that girl about my crush on cute boy! I KNOW she's keeping in touch with people! And the way she reacted, even though it may not mean all the paranoid stuff I was thinking yesterday (she and cuteboy have something going on the side, or she knows he would never go for me in a 1000 years), it may at least mean she might tell him. I guess what's done is done.
It may be that she likes him? Don't let yourself assume that its about you, more likely its about her. But....what I think you should do, ok....are you ready?
I think you should either get cute boy alone in a room...ok well alone doenst have to be in a room, or if you can't get him alone, email him and say "Do you want to go out sometime?" Include in there somewhere that you absolutely understand if he is uncomfortable with work relationships, that you just thought you'd ask. The other possibility is to try to ignore him, but it does't sound like that will be easy since you sit beside each other.>
> I'm trying really hard to get to cleaning my apartment. I don't know why its so hard to get started. Its a disaster right now.That is why its so hard. You need to focus on a really small spot and start there and also make sure you don't try to do it in one day, it just doesn't happen.
>I keep thinking, if anyone at work knew I lived like this, they would freak out!
And they are thinking the same thing :) really there are some really messy people out there!
>I feel like its somehow connected to something psychological going on in my head. Like, maybe I deserve to live in a mess, or as long as its this way I'll never move forward and take risks.
yeah, it might be that you feel emotionally disorganized? But...Texaschic...you don't deserve to live in that mess. You better have cleaned it lol
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