Posted by TexasChic on January 15, 2006, at 11:09:29
In reply to Re: Just got back from going out with friends at w, posted by TexasChic on January 14, 2006, at 13:50:10
I feel better than yesterday. I guess drinking does increase your depression. I was really low. I'm still feeling really ick about the other night though. I don't know why I told that girl about my crush on cute boy! I KNOW she's keeping in touch with people! And the way she reacted, even though it may not mean all the paranoid stuff I was thinking yesterday (she and cuteboy have something going on the side, or she knows he would never go for me in a 1000 years), it may at least mean she might tell him. I guess what's done is done.
I'm trying really hard to get to cleaning my apartment. I don't know why its so hard to get started. Its a disaster right now. I keep thinking, if anyone at work knew I lived like this, they would freak out! I feel like its somehow connected to something psychological going on in my head. Like, maybe I deserve to live in a mess, or as long as its this way I'll never move forward and take risks.
Well, I got a Mt. Dew to give me a caffeine boost. I'm going to give it a try.
-T
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