Posted by Jai Narayan on January 30, 2005, at 8:48:53
In reply to Re: At the moment » Dinah, posted by Angel Girl on January 28, 2005, at 13:50:38
Most of my life I felt just like the description of yourself.
I was my worst enemy...
I felt suicidal for the same reasons you do....
When I did something wrong....
well there was no forgiving me.
I understand how you feel and I remember the pain.
An abyss filled with pain.My story changes in my 40's and 50's....
my therapy got better and better.
Finally the use of EMDR lifted all the painful and traumatic messages and beliefs I had stored in my mind and body.
the underlying message was that I was not worthy of life.It has taken me years to really step into another internal reality.
I can see how my life is different now.
Of course I can still remember how hard it was and why.So I have a lot of compassion for how you feel.
I don't know if EMDR would work for you but it makes my life livable.
I still get down sometimes but there's no anchor there to keep me down.
I can rebound back up.
Ja*
poster:Jai Narayan
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