Posted by AuntieMel on August 26, 2004, at 22:51:20
In reply to B2, posted by Scott in Vermont on August 26, 2004, at 15:42:35
What ARE you 2 talking about? Huh? You can't do anything like this! You will leave too many behind out here that depend on you. Is this the last act of selfishness?
I was there about a year ago. Selfishly wanting to end my own pain. I didn't care a whit about those left behind. It was all about me.
So, I drank. And I don't mean a little, I was trying for death by alcohol poisoning. And I almost made it. Many hours after the last drink my blood alc level was still over .3
The family never knew it was on purpose. They knew it was of my depressed state, but they never knew how bad it was.
Sometime after I got less fuzzy I could see their faces around me. And for the first time it was clear that they cared. When I think of what that would have done to my kids......
And along the way I started reading babble. And I could see that I wasn't alone. That gave me the first hope I felt in years.
And you two were part of what I was reading.
And I am alive.
So, think of the impact that you have made on the lives of my kids and then tell me you have nothing to live for.
poster:AuntieMel
thread:382613
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