Posted by attoday on July 17, 2004, at 17:22:28
In reply to i think my pdoc's manic and my sister's in love .., posted by karen_kay on July 17, 2004, at 11:15:11
> 'i want someone to rescue me. but, that's not going to happen. what i need is to realize that i don't need someone to rescue me. i need to realize that i'm completely capable of saving myself. and doing things for myself. so, i've been stuck in this stupid going nowhere relationship because i'm waiting for someone to rescue me instead fo saving myself. and that, MY FRIEND is what bubba was trying to make me realize. and i JUST realized it. now, it's the DOING it part that's hard.'
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Oh yes.. I can so relate to what you wrote here.
Last week I was sitting in Starbucks getting away from my roomates and everyone... I just wanted to sit and write recovery emails and be by myself yet out. Well I heard the song "Save Me" by Aimee Mann from the "Magnolia" sound track. At that moment, it hit me. I want someone to save me.
I've thought along those lines in the past few years, but for some reason last week when I heard this song, it all came rushing to me. I want someone else to make decisions for me and just lead me through life and everything will be Okay.
This is why I found myself in a twisted online emotionally abusive relationship (if you want to lable it something. but it wasn't a relationship because "he" wouldn't ever meet me and for a good reason, "he" was a she making up her own little sick world). I heard "him" say he'll take care of me. He makes good money etc. But I got stuck in it. I lost myself. I was a wreck.
I want to take care of myself.
It's just so damn hard to figure out how to do that when you've had everyone else leading the way most of the time.
Any pointers? I sure could use them.Here are the lyrics for that song I am refering to:
"save me" Aimee Mann:You look like a perfect fit
For a girl in need of a tourniquetBut can you - save me
Come on and - save me
If you could - save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone'Cause I can tell
You know what it's like
The long farewell
Of the hunger strikeBut can you save me
Come on and save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyoneYou struck me down like radium
Like Peter Pan or SupermanYou will come to save me
C'mon and save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
'Cept the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
But the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyoneC'mon and save me
Why don't you save me
If you could save me
From the ranks of the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyoneExcept the freaks
Who suspect they could never love anyone
Except the freaks who could never love anyone
poster:attoday
thread:367120
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