Posted by karen_kay on July 17, 2004, at 14:19:27
In reply to Re: i think my pdoc's manic and my sister's in love .. » karen_kay, posted by fallsfall on July 17, 2004, at 14:02:58
do you wanna come get me? :) (half joke, unless you're grabbing your cars keys at this point, then i'm packing my bags!)
the thing is, (caution, black and white thinking, black and white thinking) i have a hard time deciding between whether it's ok to allow myself to need people or to be completely self-sufficient (and NO, there is no in-between, but please, try to make me see different.. convince me please!!!!! i'm very gullible and easily persuaded! just yesterday, i was thinking, 'i can make things happen', the day before, it was 'i need someone to make things happen for me and rescue me instead'.. so, someone help me see the color grey!)
sooooo...... i'm anything but consistent.
ok, honestly, i think what happens is that i'm spiteful (who me?) and i get upset that people don't save me (not that i need saving of course and not that i'd take anyone up on saving if they offered to save me at this point anyway, because chances are i woudln't. my sisters have often times offered to 'save' me, but i'd jsut be trading one bad situation for another and i know that wouldn't be a good situation)... where is this going? i'm going to jsut sit here and think happy thoughts instead with that stupid grin on my face (and believe me, i do have that stupid grin on my face, but things are starting to make more and more since to me now... i'm spiteful. that's what it boils down to....
now, to enlist the help of.....
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