Posted by pegasus on May 18, 2004, at 15:47:32
Hi babblers. I'm writing this because my husband just asked me if I wrote to you all about it, and I had to say no. He said, "why not? isn't that what babble is for?" And I guess he's right.
So, here's the deal: We've been trying to get pregnant for about 2 years now. We've had all the obvious tests done, and they can't find anything wrong.
Except my thyroid. I had it removed 10 years ago because of cancer. So, I take synthroid every day. And I've felt fine. But recently I discovered that my TSH levels were too high. So I changed dose, and they went way too low. So I changed back, and now they're still too low, but better. So I'm all confused, and feeling hopeless. I'm never going to get this straightened out in time. I'm 39, and don't have time to waste. We were going to start trying some basic infertility treatments this month, but I can't because I have to get the thyroid stuff stabilized first. Which we don't know how to do.
I figure if I get to 40 with no pregnancy, then we'll start filling out the forms for adoption. I've already looked into it a some. But, dang it, I want to at least have a shot at having our own first. And it looks like I just waited too long, or have something wrong with me or something. And everyone around me is pregnant. I actually never thought I'd feel this way. I was always ok with or without kids. Until I started trying and it didn't work. I'm really depressed about this.
And today is the first day of my period. It's like getting kicked when you're already down.
pegasus.
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