Posted by EmmyS on March 28, 2004, at 8:32:56
In reply to Re: Hmmm.... » Dinah, posted by SandyWeb on March 28, 2004, at 4:56:35
Sandy - I was the same age as your children when my mother suicided. I wonder what you think will happen to them?
Do you think they will "be better off" without you as my mother did? I can assure you, my mom was incorrect. The many children she left behind were so totally screwed up by her suicide, that decades later most of us are still basket cases. Our family was destroyed, the guilt and self-blame overwhelmed each child. Yes, even the youngest children grew thinking it was their fault entirely and have lived with that for decades. It's mom's legacy - agonzing pain. More than one of my siblings have also attempted. I'm quite sure my brother will soon succeed.
I realize that depression causes irrational thinking. Sandy, try to think clearly for a few minutes. Think about the love you have for your children. Know they love you and need you in their lives forever; for their first broken hearts, for their graduations, their weddings, the births of their children. My mom wasn't there for any of that.
I shopped alone for my wedding dress. It sucked. I cried.
It's not just all the big days either. I miss her every single day. Every single day.
Arrange for childcare. Pack a bag. It's time to get to that hospital. It's not just about you right now - it's about your children.
Emmy
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