Posted by Angielala on January 26, 2004, at 14:22:59
In reply to Another Monday, posted by All Done on January 26, 2004, at 12:04:49
If you only want to post when you fell bad- that is absolutely perfectly fine! We are here for you, no matter what. You have unconditional friends here :)
All Done, I really really feel where you are coming from. I'm having a down day myself. And the guilt- I understand so much.... I have a wonderful fiance who is so supportive. Some really close friends that know my ups and downs and are always there for me.
Yet I hate my job and I have thinking about my job, I hate my career and I know what you mean about the lack of motivation, I'm right here with you.
Now because I'm on the outside looking in, I can tell you a few things you can't see from out here. The fact you got your mom and hubby to go to joint sessions is something that takes courage and a total unconditional love. Just for that, i hope you can give yourself on your back.
Now- the work part. We hate our jobs. This we know. We know that we have to work for money and whatever else life throws our way (med insurance, blah blah blah). Try not to let the crap you have to go through each day at work skew what you do have- a creative mind, a loving and caring and empathic soul... work tries to kill our spirit, and as hard as it is, we need to find ways, at work, to be able to express ourselves... maybe to TO anyone, but if you feel better after doodling with a really nice fine tip pen for 15 minutes, do it. Maybe you and I can start writing short, silly prose about certain situations at work- then we can at least laugh at it.
Go ahead- write a little poem or limerick or hiaku or a piece of funny prose about a particular person(s) or situation that drives you batty- and I'll follow :)
> I'm sorry - I don't mean to only post when I'm feeling bad, but I just haven't had much motivation to post otherwise lately.
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> I'm feeling so terrible I could cry. I dread going to work every day. I get a pit in my stomach that doesn't go away until 5:30 and then I don't want to go to sleep at night because the next morning will come even faster. I hate my job and I hate my career.
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> My husband and I have our first therapy session with my mom on Thursday. I'm so nervous about it I wish I could just cancel. But that would just be putting off the inevitable, I suppose.
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> Then, I start feeling guilty about being depressed because I think to myself I have a husband who regularly suggests I get massages and take bubble baths, a beautiful son that knows nothing is wrong with the world except the fact that Elmo isn't on TV 24/7 and friends who rival Beefcake in the support and compassion departments (not to mention I have Beefcake himself). I really shouldn't feel so bad, but the fact remains, I do.
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> Once again, thanks for listening. I hope you guys don't mind.
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> All Done
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