Posted by Adia on October 13, 2003, at 0:18:40
In reply to Adia, posted by HannahW on October 12, 2003, at 1:42:40
Dear Hannah,
Hi..
Thank you for your message..and for saying I could write to you! :o)
I am feeling a little better cause I got through the weekend and weekends are the hardest.
Thank you so much for your support and acceptance..
My therapists knows some about the abuse, I have never verbalized it or talked about it openly, I drew about it or wrote to her trying to share..I find it hard to talk about it but what I struggle to tell her is what I feel now..I fear she will think I am going crazy..and I fear not knowing how to handle the feelings...I am trying somehow to let her in and share from my heart.
You are right that speaking about the unspeakable does reduce the power..the secrecy is the worst. It brings shame and it does feel overwhelming to feel alone with something that hurts so much.
I am trying to take the risk and start naming things..she says it's as though I were a child learning to speak...learning to name things...
learning that I have the right to tell and talk and feel..Thank you for being here and understanding...
Thank you for sharing with me.i've been with my b/f for 3 years now and he knows just the basics...but struggles with the consequences..he has tried to read and help, but he is getting frustrated and I feel lost cause I truly can't stand that pressure :-(
Thank you so much again for being here and giving me your mail address..You are a wonderful person..
I am feeling more hopeful now and knowing you are there helped so much this weekend.
I hope you are feeling well....
I am sending you lots of love and support,
Adia.
> How much does your boyfriend know? How long have you been with him? This trail could lead into things you might not want to post publicly. If you feel like talking about it more, you can e-mail me at hannahbabble at hotmail.com (Use the @ symbol). Heck, even if you don't feel like talking about this particular subject, write me anyway! I'd like to get to know you better.
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> I know it's a long time until Friday. Try, try, try to distract yourself with something. Anything.
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