Posted by Sabina on August 24, 2003, at 21:50:10
In reply to He called to say he wouldn't be calling..., posted by kara lynne on August 24, 2003, at 20:32:49
i was once in a similar situation, though with a very different kind of guy. nonetheless, on the evening of the "call to say it was the final call" i remember being filled with a sense of dread like the one you mentioned: that i'd blown my last chance.
still, at the back of my mind was a sense of relief that it might all be over - finally and blessedly o-ver. somehow, on some level, i knew i'd finally had enough and that i'd rather risk being alone than living in that hellish, mind *&%@ of a relationship.
i relalized he wasn't doing those bad things to me. i was allowing someone to do them to me, and what a difference there was between the two.
the beautiful thing about the pain of finality is that it frees you to start again and make more self preserving choices in the future.
i don't know if that helps or not, but it was that way with me and, in the end, a good thing. i can't imagine my life now if i'd stayed in that terrible relationship.
poster:Sabina
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