Posted by Emme on July 3, 2003, at 19:32:43
In reply to Re: help, please...., posted by whiterabbit on July 3, 2003, at 18:24:32
Hi Gracie,
> Emme are you getting live help? As special as this site is, sometimes you need the hands-on
> kind of help. Do you have a therapist or support group?I did call my pdoc's office this morning to check in and left the message that I was having a setback. She's made it clear I should call if I need her and is doing her best to be supportive. My therapist is on vacation. Believe it or not I was actually out of town during the afternoon today. I managed to follow through with plans, even though I was tired and dispirited and didn't want to go.
> Are you taking medication?
Yeah. Too darned many of them. :( But nothing seems expendible at the moment.
> Have you considered a short hospitalization? A
> hospital with a GOOD psychiatric program can be > extremely helpfulYeah, I've thouht about it, my doctor and I have mentioned it, and there are times I've started to want it. It's never discounted. If I get too much worse.... But in the meantime, my pdoc has had me schedule an appointment for a consulting opinion with someone she recommends highly. It's at the end of July (and it's going to be wicked expensive). She wants a fresh set of eyes and ideas.
> (I've experienced both at two local hospitals - very good treatment and very mediocre treatment). Think about it and write me if you have questions > - I've been around the psychiatric block more than a few times and learned some stuff the hard way.
Actually, if I could ask a few questions maybe I'd feel less scared of the whole idea...
What made the good treatment good? What made the mediocre treatment bad?
Did the doctor in the hospital communicate with your regular pdoc?
Were you treated with respect?How much of your own clothing/possessions are you allowed to have with you? Do you get any privacy?
Were you allowed to leave the floor and go outside at *all*?
I know this sounds silly, and maybe I have really distorted ideas about what happens when you're in the hospital, but I think I am terrified of the idea of loss of personal freedom. At my worst I'm sure I wouldn't care because I'd be in so much pain. But if I started to improve, then I could see myself totally freaking out not being able to go outdoors.I'm open to hearing anything else you think would be helpful. Thanks so much and thanks for helping yank me through another hellish night.
Emme
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