Posted by Eddie Sylvano on May 8, 2003, at 15:37:48
In reply to Re: somatic/neurologic/emotional, posted by Snoozy on May 7, 2003, at 15:14:54
> Bright sunny days are excruciating to be outside on. It feels like the sun rays are just stabbing through my eyes and my head. My eyes start involuntarily tearing really badly and I want to go live with the mole people.
-------------Ugh. I went to the beach last weekend, and all I could do was hide hy head under a blanket. I need a pair of welding goggles or something.
> Memories of things like high school are weird. I remember things, but it's like I'm remembering something I saw in a movie - it doesn't feel like oh yes, I remember when this happened.
-----------That's what gets me a lot. I don't feel any connection to my past. It seems alien to me that I used to be married, or in school, or live in a different apartment, for that matter. All that makes sense is the present, and it's not always that convincing.
> I always wonder if other people who grew up during the Cold War have had the same feeling I did. I was depressed as all get out, but I always believed I would never live to be 21 because there would be a nuclear war.
--------------I used to have nuclear war dreams constantly as a kid (though this was during the early Reagan Cold War era). Still, The Day After didn't help me sleep at night.
I can understand the conviction that you'll be dead before your problems hit you. I didn't do my taxes for several years when deeply depressed. What were they gonna do... kill me?Thanks for the feedback.
poster:Eddie Sylvano
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