Posted by leeran on May 7, 2003, at 16:48:18
In reply to Re: somatic/neurologic/emotional » leeran, posted by Dinah on May 7, 2003, at 16:27:19
Hi Dinah,
When I read this in your post:
"I can't remember anything. I can't even remember if I've remembered something."
I instantly identified. Oh how I HATE that feeling. Sometimes I'm embarrassed to ask my husband or son if I've just told them something! Maybe it's a synapse misfiring (i.e. my thoughts are racing because I THOUGHT I wanted to tell them whatever it was). I also wonder if (for me) it's not a by-product of spending so much time by myself (i.e. all day long).
I have this running (silent, I think :-) dialogue with myself all day that really goes back to childhood (me, myself and I - the kid who could entertain herself). However, in the last four years I've been alone during the day (whereas I used to have an office with an assistant and a partner).
Additionally, I blame those *&%$ feelings of "did I say that or think that or what?" on menopause (perimenopause, since my hormones can't even decide if they want to get off the fence and be done with it for a year straight).
I think I do better with an adrenaline burst - Since I posted my initial response to Eddie I found out that my husband's close childhood friend is going to be here from the East Coast rather unexpectedly this evening (we were expecting him over the weekend).
In this last hour I've gotten more done and burned more calories than I have in the last week! Here's to hoping I can remember where the *&*% I hid everything later.
Lee
p.s. Sometimes I attribute these "weird feelings" to hearing loss (I definitely need a hearing device in one ear at age 44) and my rapidly declining vision (my arms aren't long enough to read menus anymore).
I "inherited" the mental illness gene from my mother's side of the family (heck, probably both sides), the hearing loss from my father's side, the early menopause from my mother's side, the weight battle from my father's side, the a.d.d. from my mother's side, and the hair loss from my father's side. I always felt like such an individual until I turned about thirty seven. Now I'm feeling a bit like a deflated beach ball from the family gene pool.
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