Posted by PhoenixGirl on January 2, 2003, at 0:33:39
In reply to Please help me, I am so lonely and wish I was dead, posted by PhoenixGirl on December 18, 2002, at 0:18:44
Hello everyone. I want to write more extensive responses to the messages in my thread here. Right now I am awake because of insomnia and dread of going to work. My depression from the loneliness goes up and down, and on New Year's Eve it was hellish, like my head and entire body was in a vise. I saw my roommate go out and have fun, dating a guy and being with her friends. On television I saw all the happy people celebrating in Times Square as the ball dropped. It's hard not to feel sorry for yourself in a time like that, but I am trying not to because my dignity matters to me. Somehow this experience is teaching me something, leading me somewhere I am meant to be. Maybe I can help someone someday.
I am thinking about getting in touch with a nonprofit organization called "Compeer". It's dedicated to matching up volunteers with people who have mental illness and suffer in isolation. People volunteer with Compeer to spend time with a person with mental illness. The two meet up once a week to do something like watch a movie, have coffee, shop, etc. What do you guys think about this idea? Has anyone heard of Compeer? I don't know if the organization is active in a lot of places or what. I hope so, it sounds like a wonderful organization.
Well I'd like to respond more fully to each person's responses to me. Hopefully I can soon. I've been tired lately and I feel like I don't have myself together. XOXO to all of you beautiful souls.
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