Posted by Alii on December 15, 2002, at 14:19:03
In reply to Re: Same here » Alii, posted by Dinah on December 15, 2002, at 12:27:19
>>Things are looking up a bit, except for work.
Sorry work is a drag. Is it because of your being preoccupied by other things going on in your life?
>>I'm putting any thoughts of my brother leaving firmly out of my mind. My therapist is settled back down for the moment and it doesn't look as if he has plans to leave. I don't know how long that will last though. He's a terrific therapist in some ways, but certainly not the most stable guy in the world.
Well how many of us are truly stable after all? Maybe his possible leaving is a fork in the road to begin thinking about a different therapist? I don't say that lightly at all since I know the enormous trust issues involved.
I'm living proof of the abilitly to forge therapeutic relationships with differing levels of trust over the years with a number of therapists---due to insurances changes, job changes, moving, etc.
Ideally I would like to get everything done with one person but my life hasn't allowed that. Damn that adage: the only constant in life is change.
>>It's just the continued work pressure that is really getting to me, and the OCD is still acting up.I wish I had some suggestions as to how to help relieve some of that work pressure. OCD doesn't sound like a barrel of laughs either. Ugh on all that DM. =(
>>I wish I were one of the people who could put things in the hands of a higher power, or rely on one. I wish I had the gift of prayer. But I'm not, however much I try. My spirituality is more of the praising God and trying to do his will sort. I've never got the hang of the rest of it.Dinah, I think you've got the hang of more than you think or perhaps give yourself credit for. When I said that I think of you as a spiritual person I was referring to your posts over on the faith board that show an incredible knowledge of different religions and texts. You have access to this information and maybe *I'm* just being hopeful but somehow I sense that some of that information has got to resonate somewhere inside of you and help in some tiny way. Maybe I'm naive. But dammit I hope that you have some sense of support from outside---and read that as higher power, neighbour, coworker, friend, etc.
>>Hope things are still looking up.
>> DinahI don't think they could get much lower so I've completely lowered any expectations for myself and am doing quite well considering I don't ask more of myself than to arise each day, breathe in breathe out, stay alive and then at some point return to a state of drugged slumber. Jolly, eh?
Going off to work with the kidz today. It is rainy out so I am bringing over all my art goodies and a tarp to get all messy artsy on. These kidz are good for my broken soul. Nicest thing about em? I get to give em back! ;)
Fondly,
Alii
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