Posted by Alii on December 11, 2002, at 23:47:29
You replied to a post I made on the book board but I thought I had better reply over here since it is mostly social. I have no idea how to explain the type of therapy I'm doing now so I'm not putting this on PPB or whatever the dillyoh it is called now.
I am doing therapy with a woman and a group that she facilitates. I just said in an e-mail to someone else tonight that I feel as if all these years of therapists have led me to this calm woman who can shift modalities as needed and is dead on the second I begin to dissociate. She's good.
The group dynamic is strange but helping with the stigma of such horrific abuse/attacks. Fairly amazing women in this small group and it is run tightly timewise which helps keep things moving and instead of being confusing is quite comforting to have such structure. Does that make sense?
I'm dissociated a great portion of the time lately but doing the best I can considering the body of work being done in both the individual sessions and the group sessions.
A lot of art is involved. It hasn't gotten to the anger yet or truly the darkness but is bubbling up the pain and horror and absolute terror I went through in one night.
As far as functioning in the world? I'm at a minimal level but considering what I'm facing I'm damn proud I'm not swallowing every flippin bottle o' pillz in my house. Shit...everyday I wake up I'm amazed that I'm still here another day.
You inquired. I answered. Sheesh. You probably weren't looking for a novel.
Take care DM.
--Alii
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