Posted by .tabi.T.ha. on August 6, 2002, at 16:56:32
In reply to Re: ...a Sweet Gabbi, posted by Dinah on August 6, 2002, at 16:21:50
Gabbi, I can tell you feel deflated since you've gone lowercase. :( Great idea about naming yourself Civil, but why not go all out and be Please B. Civil ???
Dinah, I talk about this board in therapy too. Feels nutty, but that's how I am with relationships, any human contact brings up so much stuff for me. My social life is practically nothing but email at this point, and still there's plenty to process. I'm not contemplating leaving, but just trying to figure out how to participate in a way that adds to my life rather than adding more upset. One option is just to keep it light here, and process stuff in therapy. But then I tend to avoid conflict too so maybe that's a cop-out. I think that thread just got to me because in my family, if you said "That hurt my feelings" the response was "you're too sensitive". I eventually gave up on that sort of honesty with my family. I think I'm actually doing well here at assuming the best intentions of people. Many times I've seen something that could possibly be taken as an insult, and been able talk myself out of it. That's actually big progress for me.
Posting here has added a lot, I really do feel less isolated, and I've been surprised how "real" people come to be just through their writing. There are some great folks here that I value knowing. It's nice too to know some crazies, I've missed that since I quit going to my mood disorder support group. Nice to know folks who have gone through that ego-deflating process of accepting that big parts of themselves are chemistry gone bad. I get soooo frustrated with friends who are still trying to think their way out of their depression and don't "believe in" medication.
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