Posted by cmcdougall on December 14, 2001, at 9:17:18
In reply to Re: Feeling disconnected?? » mair, posted by JahL on December 14, 2001, at 8:41:22
I definately communicate better in writing. When I try to discuss sensitive issues with my husband (or anyone) the words just whirl around in my head. I know what I want to say, but the words can't make it out of my mouth.
Even though I am new to posting here, I have read this board for several months and I feel that you people DO understand what I'm going through. I am also lucky enough to have a pdoc that understands me too. Since depression runs deep in my genes, I have a couple close family members that understand somewhat as well.
I have found that this board distracts me from dealing with important things I need to take care of... connects real well with my procrastination problem. I also find that I'm a "little" compulsive and obsessive about it (who am I kidding?). This has happened to me once before with another board dealing with Father's rights. I was involved in a lawsuit and needed support - now I'm in a depressive crises and need support again.
The board helps a lot in that I can feel a little connected to people who are also suffering, people who don't know me, won't judge me, and who have some darn good advice. After my long battles with mental illness and all the meds I've been on, I feel that I have something of value to offer, and it makes me feel good to pass it on. I am also sure that it does not feel very good for me to find something else to be compulsive and obsessive about.
I set a timer for 30 minutes so that I wouldn't stay on line too long and be late for work. Oh oh, the timer went off 20 minutes ago. ;-)
Carly
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> > Do others of you feel that you can express yourself in writing better that you can orally?
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> Yes. Psychomotor retardation makes talking a real effort for me.
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> > I'd love some feedback.
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> For myself, this is the *only* place where my condition is fully understood. Psychiatrists can't comprehend; certainly not therapists. I'm tired of having my level of disability questioned. Friends can only be sympathetic rather than empathetic.
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> Just as I couldn't possibly imagine the horror of physical torture since I live in a democratic state, unless you've first-hand experience of serious mental illness I doubt one can appreciate fully the horror of the *mental torture* it visits upon you. Simple as that for me.
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> J.
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