Posted by Krazy Kat on September 12, 2001, at 20:10:07
In reply to bitch...everyone, posted by sar on September 11, 2001, at 23:23:25
> Krazy Kat--
>
> I related to your post the most because I've got those 2 distinctive personalities that you describe...=== My pdoc's first "diagnosis" was Mood Disorder, Not Otherwise Described, Mulitple Personality Disorder... ???
and what would a Taoist say? i think a taoist would say: "do nothing, don't try, integration will happen in its own time, at the right time, naturally."
=== Yes, I think you're right. But it's so difficult going back and forth. I'm starting to realize that even though I feel more stable, I'm still doing that, and I think I always will. But if the line between the two just isn't SO squiggly.
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> my loss of self on meds has been wonderful--i've lost my nervousness and recurrent suicidiality and gained laughter and a sense of wellness...=== Good! But that's more a loss of bad mojo...
but i'm somewhat apathetic and unyielding...
=== I've noticed apathy as well.
the past doesn't grasp my heart so dearly anymore, which is a relief (for now)--
=== Loss of passion? Loss of raw passion, perhaps?the meds have toned down my emotionality but they've also made me--pointless? maybe someone else can describe this better?
=== Yeah, but, if we can't accomplish anything because of the suicidal urges, the limitations caused by the depression and/or mania, then it's pointless not to take something. I would give it time. And you might find that a stabilizer helps. Or, go the other way, and lower your AD... I'm not sure.i no longer feel like gasping dying drunk--instead, i feel like an eat-3-meals-a-day-worker-dater but not fully whole--i lack so much fabric of being somehow...
=== Ah, they've made you one of "them" - one of those nice worker, social people. :) Again, I would give the fabric of being thing time. And you may not be cut out for the 9:00 - 5:00 world. I know I'm not. I'm avoiding it like a plague while I try to decide what to do.
-K. (I feel so guilty for giving up "Kingfish". See, it's that multiple personality thing again.)
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