Posted by Kristi on September 10, 2001, at 1:57:36
In reply to bitch, posted by sar on September 10, 2001, at 1:39:06
Sar....
I couldn't let this post drive by without adressing the similarities. Unbelievable. All my adult life I've been told that I let people walk all over me, that I don't stick up for myself, I have no self esteem, am too meak and weak... now that I am not that way.... I am tough, I have self esteem, I'll call people on what needs to be called on...... I'm still not good enough????? To hell with what these people think... it's what we think that counts. Them and their comments caused me to change, now they don't like it. But I do... and that's what counts. I have no answers to any of your questions, but I can relate. Former nice girl turned bitch, Kristi> dear all,
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> i feel i've been going through a glorious horrible metamorphosis. a summer + 2 hospitalizations + 2 meds have given me some verve, some kick, some sarcasm, some outgoingness, more petulance than i've ever had.
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> my old friends and family are alienated and shocked. they are used to a sluggish, submissive, secretive (name here)...and i'm just not like that anymore. i seem to amuse my new friends quite a bit and make them easily, but these old friends and my parents seem to not like me too much anymore.
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> i'm happier with my new self, and i suppose that is the important thing.
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> i'm curious, though, if anyone else has experienced anything similar. they accuse me of being a "bitch" when i feel i've finally gotten a *backbone.* (previously very shy and submissive before--always strong-willed, but now it shows alot more).
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> reconciliation of 2 selves...it was such a qucik evolution that i suppose it set some heads spinning.
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> i never want to be my old self again.
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> but how the hell do i know if i'm really the bitch they accuse me of being?!!
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> sar
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