Posted by sar on September 10, 2001, at 1:39:06
dear all,
i feel i've been going through a glorious horrible metamorphosis. a summer + 2 hospitalizations + 2 meds have given me some verve, some kick, some sarcasm, some outgoingness, more petulance than i've ever had.
my old friends and family are alienated and shocked. they are used to a sluggish, submissive, secretive (name here)...and i'm just not like that anymore. i seem to amuse my new friends quite a bit and make them easily, but these old friends and my parents seem to not like me too much anymore.
i'm happier with my new self, and i suppose that is the important thing.
i'm curious, though, if anyone else has experienced anything similar. they accuse me of being a "bitch" when i feel i've finally gotten a *backbone.* (previously very shy and submissive before--always strong-willed, but now it shows alot more).
reconciliation of 2 selves...it was such a qucik evolution that i suppose it set some heads spinning.
i never want to be my old self again.
but how the hell do i know if i'm really the bitch they accuse me of being?!!
sar
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