Posted by NikkiT2 on May 8, 2001, at 9:23:21
In reply to Re: Forgive, O Lord, posted by Doo on May 7, 2001, at 23:22:16
Isn't it strange what our brain turns up.. I was trying to explain to a psychologist this morning about how I feel with regards to life / death. Death seems a much better option, and suicide is on my mind most of the time.. But not in a black "Right, I want to kill myself2 kind of way.. more a "I can't be bothered to live much longer" kind of way.
I've also been finding a hole in me that I guess most people fill with their "religious" beliefs. Dunno how to fill this, but have a feeling maybe things will be better once I do. I want someone to give me proof, to show me exactly what to believe in.. I want God to shpow himself and say "see, I am real, you can believe in me"...
I hope things are getting better...
nikki xxx
poster:NikkiT2
thread:5880
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20010417/msgs/5902.html