Posted by shar on October 27, 2000, at 13:40:11
In reply to If I don't like me, should I go eat worms???, posted by Rainwoman on October 27, 2000, at 13:02:17
Michele,
Well, damn. It is so awful to see someone go. It is crappy moreover because in the midst of the grip of the Beast, we don't always make our best decisions.You have obviously been in pain for a long time. And, it gets harder and harder to bear. I don't know if you are at the bottom of the pit or still sliding down, pulling the top in after you--but that is not all there is to life.
The depression and the Beast tell us that we are dead inside, there is not hope, it is too late, too much water under the bridge. They are not your friends, the thoughts like that.
I don't think you're anorexic, and I understand about not eating so living will cease sooner, but I do insist on asking again that you hold on. Even when you are out of all hope, if you can just wait a while, do so.
In addition, I wish I were there so I could drag you kicking and screaming (if need be) to your p-doc to get you some meds....and maybe ease your pain a bit. If you won't go, put the "awake Michele" in charge, and move your ass, please.
So many of us here know what you are going through! And know that you can be helped--if you will hang on. You are right when you say nobody can change your mind, but we can sure as hell try. I know you have the energy to walk to the phone and dial your p-doc's number and say you are in crisis, or in trouble, or whatever.
Post back. Pay it forward.
Shar
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