Posted by Rainwoman on October 27, 2000, at 13:02:17
In reply to Re: Punishment for lack of courage.... » Rainwoman, posted by Cass on October 27, 2000, at 0:45:27
Ha! Not when you're not eating you don't! This isn't Survivor folks!
I'm just putting in an update, it was nice of you all to reply. Nothing has changed, and I didn't contact my p-doc. I wasn't supposed to see him until 11/6. But, at the rate I'm going, will he be able to see me?? Sorry, dark humor. Actually today isn't a "real bad" day. I did eat 3/4 of a bagel. Oh, and a few Necco wafers. My breath is enough to kill a horse still though. Too bad I couldn't just breath on myself. There is no escaping this illness. It will be back, and it's too late for so many things. Life hurts too much for me to exist, and that is that, end of story. I don't think I am anorexic, not that it really matters at this point. I never thought I was fat, I used to be 5'7" 135lbs. I'm certainly not fat now at 120. I just hurt and refuse to add anything to sustain this misery. I certainly don't want to be a "squeaky wheel", nor do I want to bring anybody down. This is my choice and I don't think anybody can say anything to stop me. I have no idea what is going to happen to me but this has gone on too long, and it only gets worse. Please, don't feel bad for me.Thanks for caring,
Michele
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