Posted by Rzip on October 16, 2000, at 23:54:29
In reply to Re: Guilt about depression - feedback please, posted by quilter on October 16, 2000, at 23:43:31
> Quilter,
I feel the same way that you do. I have a set of wonderful parents. I am attending a very good school. I could have a bright future. So, why is it that I act and feel the way that I do?
I do feel guilty that I must either be weak or I am psychotic. However, I do not want to put myself down after just picking myself up after a very bad weekend. I actually felt better all on my own after interacting intensively on this board. Either I am going in my shell again and pretending everything is o.k. Or, I am really blossoming as a result of the various degree of support I have been receiving.
Finally, I hear you your guilt, but sorry I do not have an answer. Hopefully, sympathy helps a bit.
Yours truly.
I have felt especilly guilty when in group therapy it seems like everyone else has had terrible things happen to them, like incest, rape, abuse, stalking...you name it. I did not have to cope with alcoholic parents, a single parent upbringing. I have no right to feel as bad as these people so why am I here? I must just be weak willed or a hypochondriac of some kind.
> Part of me knows that none of us has chosen to feel the way we do, or to shirk our duties to others. But this horrible illness, this invisible disabling thief of hope is a part of each of us here. The fear of what lies ahead, and the guilt about what lies behind are mortal enemies I will have to fight as long as I live. I sure do hate trying to pick up the pieces so often, though. I tell others about my depression because I would rather be known as a nut than a lazy, stupid slob. Peculiar isn't it?
> Quilter
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