Posted by KayLen on July 9, 2006, at 16:57:52
In reply to Re: Time to Get Over It » KayLen, posted by Joan797 on July 9, 2006, at 9:28:01
Joan,
I know ....I think just how you feel ...I feel as if my family was taken from me while I was very ill....it came in the guise of "HELP" for me and my family. I can't even begin to tell anyone about it because the this person comes across as so innocent {except to me} that my own family thinks Ive got a persecution complex going or that im paranoid. She isn't as interested in making me look so terrible anymore because she ran me out of my own home...I am in the same spot ...I don't know how to get my family back...I get so fustrated and hopeless sometimes that I feel like giving up on them...thinking if they could let me go so easily who needs them??..and just saying that..is making me cry....I am doing the only thing i know to ask for help at this time and that is right here in writting to you and reading and others too. Yes your not a victim NOW..BUT...is it your fault when curcumstances out of your control don't go well for you?..I don't think so ..as soon as it is known ..what is happening..then staying in the problem is your choice...and I wish I had the wisdom to tell you what to do ...because then I could also help myself. All the things you said you don't know?..I don't either for me ..I can relate pefectly. I have been trying for a long time at the same time I seem to be unable to control myself and I say things to my husband "OH ..so how is my life going now??...I hope your having enough fun for us both!!.....As much as my mind knows it is my fault I haven't been able to get over what been done to me...my heart still blames him for the deep betrayal. That could be why I can't find my way out ...because I am truly still blaming him. but I think also Is it MY fault?? ...was I wrong to trust and believe??...because thats what I did..I was wronged...and I have to pay the price for someone doing me wrong??...I must be getting bitter and that scares the begeebers out of me. were going to get better...we are searching ..I believe we find what we search for ....so most of the time I try to look for good. Do you have any support from anyone? At this point I don't. I have new pals ..where I am but as far as support goes they couldn't even understand the mess im in. I know that is so very important. My Mom was the only person who could see what was going on...and she died over a year ago. Things will work out for you ...just try not to let to much time pass...sometimes im feeling that I have wasted so much of my life..I would not like to see you or anyone in that spot.
I hope that you get all of the best of what life has to offer...don't give up!!
PEACE
Kaylen
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