Posted by Joan797 on July 9, 2006, at 9:28:01
In reply to Re: Time to Get Over It » Joan797, posted by KayLen on July 8, 2006, at 14:45:43
Your post made me cry. I have sat here and cried for quite a while now. I don't know how to fix this. I have been caring for my dying father for the past 9 months and stayed with him many nights. During that time I feel as if I lost my family and my marriage failed even further. Now that Dad is gone, I can't seem to reclaim my home, family or former life. It seems as if there was always something that kept me from having control over my own situation. Before Dad's situation, there was work for a failing company that monopolized all my time for 12 years. Before that, raising children seemed to cause me to lose myself and allow my husband to take over and control my former personality.
I guess you are saying that I am a victim because I chose to be and only I can change things. I know that. It's easier to blame others and wallow in my own sadness than to change things. I just don't know how to change them. I don't know how to take control of my life. I don't know how to be my own person. I don't know how to stop expecting and start asking. I need help in so many ways.
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