Posted by jonquiljo on February 22, 2006, at 19:27:55
In reply to Re: Caretaker blues ....****Trigger**** » jonquiljo, posted by Damos on February 22, 2006, at 15:32:04
Damos, thanks for the reply. I've got a few minutes while my wife is talking to a therapist via phone consult att he present time.
Emotions are running strong here. She is angry that I betrayed her trust and didn't let her die. I actually thought she WAS dead - so only time will work with that one.
I do feel that she is being selfish in terms of me. How does she expect that I am to deal with this? When she tries again - what do I do? Watch? You see my dilemma.
I've been extremely close to her for many years now. The past few have descended in to a co-dependecy of caretaking/patient - death and dying. I'm about to pop. At 52, I thought I've been through most everything in my life. Believe me, this beats it all.
I think I understand it from her perspective. I am just being tortured myself. WHat can I do???????????
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