Posted by jonquiljo on February 22, 2006, at 5:42:09
In reply to Re: Caretaker blues ....****Trigger**** » jonquiljo, posted by Damos on February 21, 2006, at 15:23:04
Damos, thanks for the reply. I'm relatively new to this board, and do not understand the terminology such as "trigger" etc.
To be honest, I feel that she has been terribly selfish dragging me through her suicidal desires all these years. When you committ your life to someone, I don't think its fair that they put you in the position of having to anticipate their death - day by day. Its been going of for over 4 years now, where I have expected her potential death each day I come to get her in the morning.
Perhaps I am being selfish. Or perhaps I have reached the end of my rope when I see 16 years of excessively selfish behavior. My emotions are running wild. I'm afraid to get up, as to what I might find in the morning - we sleep in separate bedrooms, so I don't see her until the night has passed.
Jon
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